As I said many times before in this thread London , what a great idea this was .
Well alot has changed in my life and my guilt has changed alot to different guilt about different things but yep it never goes away, I guess that's motherhood .
Baby nomad I could have wrote so much of your post . My guilt since Ds's autism diagnosis is just so bad. I can't even look at he's baby pics for gods sakes , I just feel guilt , how did it take me so long to figure out ?
A year wasted from 18 months to now ( 3 in jan ) , umming and aahing with he's therapists , threads galore started by me on here worried bout he's lack of speech . And here we are today . My deepest suspicions were true and I feel very guilty that a whole year of early intervention could have already been done instead of us just starting this journey.
I feel that I am never ever doing enough for him . If I'm not " teaching " him something every minute of the day I feel like I'm not doing enough .
And the guilt to my daughter who misses out on so very much that sure she may not know about but * I * know . She has not gotten the best if me that my son got .
Seriously . I have two beautiful healthy children that I'm not even enjoying these days because I'm just too busy feeling guilty about everything .
And pippi Ill always love bubhub but yes it's harder to be truthful on here these days I feel . Not sure why I just am more reluctant . Maybe alot of people are gone , things have changed abit . Its still an amazing place I just don't always come here for support like I once did for fear of judgement .
All you other posters that added to this recently , good on you . I hope it was cathartic. I hope you realise your not alone . Many many parents have or do feel just like you .