I know this is a weird question and I'm sorry if I haven''t phrased it right. What I mean is, do you get saddened as your baby grows, that he/she is getting older and further out of the baby stage? Please don't attack me, I am feeling awful about it. Ds2 (Ollie) is almost 3 months and while I am LOVING the smiles and the interaction and his personality as it's emerging- I can't help but be a little devestated that the baby stage is flying by so quickly already. Perhaps because I KNOW he will be my last- while he wasn't planned at all and I never intended to ahve bub number 4- this time my tubes are well and truly tied, I know there will be no more babies. I adore that we have so much cuddle time now, I carry him around in the sling for hours, he sleeps in my arms. When we are alone we can just sit quietly and snuggle I suppose because I do have 3 older children I am very well aware that this stage is short and precious and while I obviously love all my children and none more than the others, it does change as they get older- their dependence lesens somewhat, the cuddles are not as frequent. I know that when they get to 2ish we will have tantrums and screaming and I will have days of loving but not overly "liking them,"... iynwim.. I am so not ready for that yet!! Even on the rough days with Ollie I still just adore him... I'm still in the post birth high period and I'm dreading that to end.
I don't remember this with bubs number 1 or two- with bub number 1 I couldn't wait for her to outgrow the sleepless nights etc and bub number 2 we had bonding issues because of his screaming, reflux etc. This time it's just so awesome, I'm, loving every minute of baby hood.
So does anybody know what I mean??? Am I the only one? because I'm feeling pretty awful about it.