Hi all, I donít know if this goes here but Iíll put it here anyways.
Iíll start with telling you Iím going through a bit of a bad time at the moment with myself, keep getting depressed about everything, and getting obsessive thoughts about negative things. But I think Iím driving my partner away.
Iíve been spending most of our time together talking about how I think he doesnít love me anymore, and that heíd prefer someone better. But I just canít help itÖ..Iím paranoid about it as Iím so insecure about myself. I am overweight and I know he liked it better when I was smaller (as he has told me once I forced it out of him), he doesnít hug or kiss me much anymore, he doesnít say nice things to me like he did. He went out on the weekend with the boys which he never does (he hates the pub seen), he ignores me when I talk to him some times, and heís constantly late home from work. So all these things are making me think he doesnít want to be around me, we have talked about it over the last few nights (most of the talking is me crying lol) and he says Iím being silly, that maybe I have something wrong with me as Iím never happy and always agitated. Which got me thinking maybe it is all me, I donít knowÖAhhhh !!! Sorry its long and probably doesnt make sence, but I needed to get it out of my head..