My sweet baby boy, my heart aches so painfully for you today, as most days.
Six months ago today they told me you had gone, I couldn't understand it then, and I still can't now. I don't know why they didn't take more notice of my concerns, so that you could have been here with me now. I'm sorry my little man. I miss you so much, I'd give it all to have you back. But you are in a better place now my sweet, a place that doesn't know this pain, or the cruelty & unfairness of this life.
Tomorrow I will rememeber you every second, as your daddy & I attempt to function on what should have been a day of celebrating you reaching 6 months of age.
I will remember the moments we shared before you went, I will remember our first cuddle, I will remember our last. I will remember the precious moments we stared at our perfect little son, I will remember giving birth to you, and will be sorry I couldn't give you life.
I feel like my heart has been gouged out and is only hanging by a thread. People around me don't understand how desperately I love & miss you. Although others may put you in the past, my sweet, you will always be at the forefront of my mind, and in my broken heart.
Nothing makes this better, nothing will ever change the hole losing you has left in our hearts, our life.
Someone said something so insensative to your daddy on the weekend, about selling your firstborn....needless to say that guy nearly got punched, as your daddy would also give anything to have his little man back. We love you more than words can describe.
Sending you a big hug & kiss my sweet,
Your mummy xoxo