I am not one to put too much out there on forums but I really just had to put what I am feeling in writing and where else but here can I get people to listen and not judge??
I am pretty convinced I have this mummy thing sorted. I have 2 absolutely fantastic little girls and without blowing my own trumpet (okay maybe a little) I reckon I am doing a pretty good job.
My problem is that I seem to have forgotten me Prior to children I was always well dressed, well presented, hair done, nails done all that jazz. I would not have dreamed of not wearing make-up when going out. These days I am lucky if my hair gets washed once a week, I never wear makeup and I definately do not present myself nicely.. Yes I know priorities change and you don't have as much time when kids come along but I seem to have lost the old me and I have been replaced by some person I really don't recognise.
I see loads of other mums and they look amazing, yummy mummy is how I would describe them. I certainly don't feel that way about myself. I know it is all superficial but I have no confidence left - I feel old, ugly and overweight. If someone does pay me a compliment instead of accepting graciously I will say - I know your lying but thanks anyway?????
How can I be so confident with my parenting skills and so not confident as a person?? I used to be a really confident person but it seems to have been removed from my body all together.
Anyway thanks for the sounding board people that is enough from me. Thanks for listening.