@Jadette welcome to our humble home. Sounds to me like you've had a bit of a journey yourself. We are all in it together here, toughing it out. Hope is all we have, so we have to stay strong. It definitely takes over the life, and sometimes feels like life is standing still, whilst everyone else is progressing. I just found out the other day that an old school friend had a second baby - but it died shortly after child birth from complications. Even though their journey to have a baby was easier, to bury a new born would be another level all together. None has it easy - life is not easy, it's just about how we manage it. I have learnt that it's ok to be sad, but that we have to have the right support mechanisms around us. Are you seeing a counsellor? Being good to yourself and each other? It's important to stay strong. What's your next plan of attack? I find having control over the next step is easier for me to handle.
@MGC Bertie the catholic question you said earlier? My sister-in-law is catcholic and has had four IVF attempts herself and knows about our donor sperm (even who it is) and is totally open minded about it all.