I hope you dont mind me dropping in but I have nowhere to go to chat and thought that maybe this was the best place.
Guess I am just looking for some reassurance...
Well I am 6 weeks and 2 days today and am just freaking out with worry.
Worried that I am going to miscarry, worried that there is going to an issue at my 12 week scan like last time (which resulted in a D&C) and just plain worried that "something" is going to happen over the next 9 months.
With my first 2 DSs I fell pregnant so easily and never had a worry in the world that I would miscarry or there would be something wrong with the baby. Now I know so easily how issues can occur that its so hard not to dwell on it. I keep looking the Due In Nov thread but dont want to join as everyone seems so happy and with not a worry in the world that I think it would be unfair of me to join in and be pessimistic and fill everyone with bad thoughts when everyone is so happy.
I am doing all the scans and bloods, etc to check for abnormalities and may even opt of an amnio if necessary. Now I am using my OPKs to keep checking that I am UTD.
I was told I could get a scan at 8 weeks but am not going to bother. I had a scan at 7, 8 and 10 weeks and everything was fine. I was so happy to hear the heartbeat at those stages and just thought 'If you hear a heartbeat its all good'. It wasnt until the 12 weeks scan that problems showed.
We arent telling anyone that I am UTD so you guys are the first to know! But I want to tell someone so at least I can share! I vacillate between wanting to tell the world and trying to ignore it and not count the seconds until my 12 week scan.
Its taken over 2 years (I stopped counting at 2 years) of TTCing, one chemical pregnancy and one D&C to get here...and I know that if this one fails for whatever reason then thats it.
I want to be able to enjoy the pregnancy as this will be my last one and all I can do is worry!!
What do I do????