katt - funny you should say that as although I appear very outgoing, I too have a fear of too many people. I get edgy when confronted with big groups of people I don't know and also just too many people in general. I used to have a fear of shopping alone but let me tell you, I overcame that one in leaps and bounds. I used to be very scared about going anywhere alone but I have overcome it due to travelling alone. I come out of my shell ALOT when I travel as I have no-one to hide behind. For example, if we all had a Bubhub reunion, I would be extremely nervous and would probably chicken out as I always worry people think I am certain way and I am actually not. Yes, I am a clown, yes I am talkative but that is only after I feel comfortable. One thing I am not is fake. If I don't like someone, they know it. I don't say it, but I stay well clear of them. I am polite but I will not engage with them. See? You and I have more in common than you thought.
Kids and prezzies. Boy oh boy. I worry about what we will be buying the nephews when they are even 10 as the 5 year old is getting a laptop from us this year. They are getting ALOT and I am gonna declare bankruptcy before Xmas. hahahaha. I just cannot help myself. You seem no better buying an Ipad. I have one and I have to say it was worth the money. I use it most days. it has been alot more reliable than all the laptops I have been through lately.
I know there is some Uni online thing. I considered it myself. You know, if I had more time, I really should go back to my course. I enjoy teaching people something new. As I enjoy someone else teaching me something new. I say just go for it. You would be good at it as you clearly love kids and seem very compassionate.
Feb for IVF for you huh? I am not sure I ever want to go back. I am feeling dirty about the whole thing lately. I just cannot stand the thought of putting myself through it all again BUT this is the time of year that I really feel empty without a child. It has started already. It usually happens once December 1st hits but this year it came a little early. What a bummer. What can you do?
So my love, I say good on you if you study again. I am sure your brain will cope. You have just lost a little confidence. You will do it well. I have every confidence in you. As for the losing weight, forget about it for a while for it is the season to be jolly.