My best friend died this morning...

**jaesmummy** · 08-09-2010 14:17

Her name was Jacqui. We have been friends for twenty years. We had our first children a few months apart and spent nearly every day together, going to playgroups and markets, shopping and just being together like friends do. When she had her second baby, I held her hand and wept for joy as he entered the world and when I had my daughter she did the same for me. She is godmother to my children as I am to hers. We have shared our whole lives and never could I have another friend so dear and special. There was no warning, she was here yesterday. She fell ill and it turned out that her appendix was septic, poisoning her system. They operated twice. But everything went wrong - and now she's gone. I held her hand just like I did when her son was born, but this time saying goodbye. This time with tears of pain and heartache instead of joy. We surrounded her with love. Her poor kids. Her husband. I don't know what to say or how I should feel - I'm just sad, and angry and I wish I could have her back. No actually, to tell you the truth, I'm ****ed as hell - I feel like ripping things apart or punching someone. I feel like screaming. I'm angry at the hospital for not saving her, and I'm angry at God for taking her.

Good bye my sister, my soul, my friend. You are mummy to our angel babies now. And I will love and watch out for your babies here on earth, I swear that to you. In my heart and in my dreams Jac. I was blessed to have you in my life. Leanne

**Travdan** · 08-09-2010 14:20

I'm so so sorry. I really am.

My thoughts are with you and her family. Be kind to yourself and allow yourself to grieve however you need to.

**Mischief** · 08-09-2010 14:21

RIP Jacqui.

I am so sorry for the loss of your best friend. I am so sorry to her husband and children for the loss of their lover, mother, and friend.

All my thoughts are with you all.

**leajones22** · 08-09-2010 14:21

I just had to give you some of these

**WorkingClassMum** · 08-09-2010 14:22

my deepest sympathy and for her family too

**MissWinter** · 08-09-2010 14:23

I'm so so sorry Leanne... I'm in tears for you and your friend, and her family...

Rest in peace...

**Lincolns mummy** · 08-09-2010 14:23

Im so so so sorry for your loss. Nothing can take away the pain you are feeling.
I too lost my best friend 3 years ago in a car accident along with her husband and it was one of the hardest things i have ever had to deal with.
All i can say is go with what you are feeling. If you want to punch something, punch it, if you want to scream, scream. Try not to bottle it up. It will end up coming out in the wrong way.
Sending you love, comfort and hugs.
If you ever need to talk pm me. xoxo

**Love is all you need** · 08-09-2010 14:24

I am so sorry for your loss (and for her families loss)

RIP Jacqui

Cannot give you enough of these hun

**sarajeff17** · 08-09-2010 14:27

im so sorry hun Big hugs

**Ra Ra Superstar** · 08-09-2010 14:29

im so very sorry. I have tears how sad

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