Oh wow that's so beautiful Ooilou, thank you so much for sharingHI ladies.
Welcome new courageous homebirthers.
I just popped in to share our little goodbye ritual story. We took the little origami boat and lotus to the river and found a lovely spot on the bank with rocks that stepped down to the water. We each spoke to our little apple. DS was gorgeous, he said he was sad that s/he didn't get to be born as his brother or sister but he was happy to have had her in our lives for this time.
We put the little boat in and....it found a little pooling current and kept coming back to us. It happened about three times. each time we put it back in trying to put it further out into the current and on the third time the lotus fell out of the boat and floated back to us. We all laughed and all agreed that s/he was showing us that s/he will come back to us. We walked further down stream and I put the lotus in one last time, we all said be free little spirit til you return, then watched it float down the river. It was so very beautiful. We all cried and laughed and I feel almost lighter.
So lovely ladies, I will pop in and follow your journeys, and hope to return soon to discuss the virtues and challenges of preparing for a homebirth. Thanks for all advice and guidance. With love