I had my first appointment today with my OB. I told him that i was hoping for a c-section and reasons were the tachycardia and blood pressure ect. WELL he said that a vaginal birth would be better for those things and he pretty much talked me out of wanting one, he went on saying the recovery takes ages and its painful ect. i just thought to myself "wouldnt labour be BAD for heartrate/BP? i cant think of anything more physically demanding than giving birth!!!" ANYWAY then i brang up the fact that im anxious about the whole birth thing and i had some pretty tough births that werent fun at all (OK so obviously its not meant to be 'fun') i totally broke down and cried at this point, the poor guy! I also told him how i had the abortion because i didnt want to do it again. He then suggested talking to a counsellor and not to talk me out of a c-section but to get to the core reasons as to why im so fearful.
I dont know if im going to get the c-section, he sounds pretty against them and im devo'd. i cannot handle giving birth again! i hate having to fight for it. i dont want to have to fight for it.
He also said that my fundal height is 20. im 16 weeks and 2 days today. he is considering changing my due date.