Im currently 33 weeks with twins, one baby is breach the other is transverse, so there is a c-section booked for me at 38 weeks if bubs havent turned.
The problem is, ever since twin a turned and they said c-section i have been nothing but depressed, to the point where im crying my self to sleep at night, i cant stand to look at my stomach anymore, and feel nothing but disgusting that i couldnt do it the way i wanted to.
We have a scan next wednesday then im meeting with the OB on thursday to discuss options,
The problem is and please no one judge me because i really dont need it right now, but i am just so over being pregnant and feeling useless that i want the c-section to be done at 36 weeks or as soon as possible, but only if the girls are still VERY healthy and above weight,
My independant midwife has said they will do it early for social reasons if i tell them i am depressed but i dont want to seem selfish and cause my babies any harm by bringing them into the world sooner...
sorry its a bit jumbled my head is in another place.
What would you do?