I'm NOT a horrible person!

**Guest1234** · 12-06-2010 23:36

ARGH I just want to scream and kick and yell and cry

Why do so many people think I'm a horrible person? Ok, so maybe not many, but it sure seems like it at the moment, and I'm feeling so trapped because of it. I'm seriously at breaking point, or close to it.
I'm a nice person. I treat people the way they deserve to, with respect, especially friends. I'm a loyal friend.
But some one doesn't think so

and has told other people and now they are bullying me.
I just want to give up trying to make friends

I try so hard, but maybe I just don't deserve friends, I don't know why, but maybe thats just the way its meant to be for me?
I feel like I can't breathe. I just feel so alone and isolated

**Tam-I-Am** · 12-06-2010 23:40

Who's saying you're horrible?

Sounds like they're not worth you having in your life, honestly. With 'friends' like that, who needs enemies?

**kribby** · 12-06-2010 23:49

Originally Posted by Tam-I-Am

Who's saying you're horrible?

Sounds like they're not worth you having in your life, honestly. With 'friends' like that, who needs enemies?

I don't think your horrible!

**Guest1234** · 13-06-2010 00:10

I'm just so confused

I won't go into much detail here, but basically I'm being accused of doing something I wouldn't even consider doing to my worst enemy, and any one that KNOWS me would know its not something I would do. But just because I fit the criteria to be capable, it MUST be me, and only me. When there has been stuff to suggest that it was not carried out by one person alone, and that it could all be a cover up story. But I haven't even been given the opportunity to have my feelings and situation considered.
I guess all I can do is move on and forget about it, but its so hard when the person is telling others, who are in turn bullying me and having others asking what they are on about, which then has more people being told, when really it should only be between me and the other person. How can I just let people say stuff about me, that I know isn't true. How can I deal with the fact that I know people are talking about me so negatively, when I know I have done nothing to deserve it. I just can't.

**kribby** · 13-06-2010 00:31

It sounds really complicated! But I always think if they don't know me better than that then they're not true friends! I had bs spread about me before and it hurts sure but really they're just showing their immaturity and lack of decancy!!
I still think about the 20 odd year friendship I ended last year under similar circumstances. It still hurts like hell but at the end of the day I'm so much better without toxic people in my life!

don't let them drag you down Hun that's what they want! I clearly stated my opinion she didn't like itso I walked away because guarenteed things weren't gonna change

**MimiGrace** · 13-06-2010 00:47

i've been in a similar situation, and i found the best thing i could do was distance myself from everyone who decided to involve themselves.

its really really hard, but you have to look after yourself and your family.
eventually everyone else will realise they're stupid and wrong, but for now, just look after yourself

**Tam-I-Am** · 13-06-2010 00:50

If people involve themselves without asking you or finding out the truth, and just make judgements - well then they're not really very good friends. I think the best you could do is just decide that you don't need them in your life and like MG said - distance yourself from them.

It sounds really complicated and yucky though

**Guest1234** · 13-06-2010 15:27

Thanks every one. It does sound complicated, but thats probably because I myself don't know the full story.
I need to realise that its not the end of the world. I know I haven't done the wrong thing, and it sucks being accused for it and not being given a chance to even be told the story or the chance to have a say, but if I lose a friend or two over it, then they weren't good friends to start off with, and I deserve better than that.
I just think its pretty immature the approach they are taking, and bullying me, but I'm the better person for cutting them off and ignoring them, rather than retaliating.
It just sucks, coz I still care for the one friend, and hate what she is going through. I'm also mad at her that she thinks I'm the reason this is all happening, when if she looked at the whole situation and the evidence, then she would probably see that I did not do what I'm being accused of, and that there are more people out there that could have done it. I guess its easier to look in on a situation than be in it.
I'm happy in my life, and I am not going to let this get me down. I am not going to let her bring me down.

**sunnyflower** · 13-06-2010 16:27

**Yummy_Mummy** · 13-06-2010 16:44

As hard as it is darl you need to forget about these people because they have no idea what they are talking about. Try not to let them get you down because you have a wonderful thing coming not too far away

hopefully karma will bite them on the bum