I dont really know what to write or even if writing something will make me feel better
On Sunday 6th June 2010 i had a ruptured ectopic pregnancy, i was 6 weeks pregnant. I went to hospital, i had internal bleeding and i wasnt in a good way, they took me to theatre for emergency laparoscopic left salpingectomy surgery meaning they removed my left tube and the baby. I almost died and i know i am lucky to be alive but i want my baby back I don't know how i am meant to be feeling but i feel lost, empty, upset, i cry all the time, can't sleep and don't feel like eating. I have been in bed every day since sunday due to the pain and the fact i lost over a litre of blood in surgery, normally i would hate being in bed for this long but at the moment i dont want to be anywhere else.
Anyway my post is long enough so i will stop writing