I have posted so many threads about anxiety and depression on bubhub but I get sick of feeling like I am just having another winge about my miserable life LOL...
So instead I decided to create this thread in hope that it can act as a little hubbers mental health support thread
So I'll start this like an AA meeting LOL
Hi Im a 22 year old mum of a two year old daughter, I am a sufferer of anxiety and depression and have concerns that I might be suffering from something else as well... My first episode of depression occured when I was 16 but I had behavioural and social problems as a kid.
my whole family have a history of depression and bipolar and the effects it has taken on my immediate family have not been very pretty.
I have struggled with the mental health system for 6 years now and have still not managed to find adequate help, or cannot afford help from a non goverment psyhcologist.
My depression comes and goes on a weekly/monthly basis varying in severity I usually get a severe bout that lasts for a few months at least once a year...
I am in one now, I am not recieving any help.
My anxiety is pretty much constant but is alot less bearable when I am depressed.
Even though my family do experiance depresion as well I do not feel comfortable talking to them about it, because it sends them into a spiral of worry, anxiety and depression.
Everything seems too hard at the moment, I am unmotivated, I have stopped leaving the house and I have not contacted anyone at least two months now, I stopped answering the phone because I struggle to speak without crying. I sleep alot and spend alot of time trying to find the next distraction, if I could afford to get drunk every day I would, luckily I cant LOL.
I dont want sympathy, I just want to talk to others sufferers who feel the same way, without judgement. I know for me at the moment that this is pretty much the only place that I have to go to "have a winge" about how depression is affecting my everyday life.
I need some sort of line to claw myself back to a resembelence of life, for now, this can be it.