Just realised that it is Nikki's 6th birthday ... it is amazing how it sneaks up on me each year as tomorrow is my dh's birthday and I tend to focus on that.
Nikki was my dd Bella's twin. Technically she was miscarried (at 9 weeks), but we celebrate this as her birthday anyway.
For some reason, I can't feel sad ... I know that she is missing from my life, but I believe I will see her again and then I have eternity to get to know her and hold her whenever I want! I am fortunate to have my other little girl here with me and am grateful that she was able to survive through to her appointed birthday.
Bella talks about Nikki all of the time ... it is heartwarming that she has an absolute assurance that her sister is waiting for her in heaven and that she will recognise her when she gets there herself.
6 years ago was one of the worst and best days of my life! I saw my little one ... held her and grieved over her loss (ok, she looked like a little bean, but she was my baby) and at the same time felt amazing relief when I had the ultrasound to check the progress of my miscarriage and found Bella's tiny heart still beating strongly.
So ... thankyou Nikki ... you are my precious daughter who I am waiting with aching arms to meet! Enjoy living in paradise ... I will be there soon when my life here on earth comes to it's natural end.
Happy Birthday Precious Girl
Lots of love from Mum