Has the same thoughts ever crossed your mind? why/why not? (correction)
So i'll give you some background info... My grandfather and i have been really really close since my birth. He has always had a really really soft spot for me and has never "told me off" even when i did naughty things (eg drawn on their walls etc but he has told off my siblings and cousins for it) fast forward to last year and he had a triple AAA operation and was at the alfred they were sure he was going to pass in about a week so they told us we all should say goodbye, so all my family visited in the next 4 days but i couldnt because i had exams all week and had to wait until the friday, 5 days after the news, my poppy went into a coma and the doctors said that he wouldnt return and they would have to turn off the life support after a week because there was "no point in keeping him" so on thursday i rearranged my exam and went to say good bye. I got there at 11am went in and saw him lifeless, (whenever i visited him at his home or saw him at family things i would always hold his hand when i was talking to him) while i was holding his hand i couldnt stop crying, because he was ICU you can only visit 1 at a time and for 5 minutes per time. So i left and came back 1 hr later, and sat with him and cried again, i repeated that the whole day and when i was visiting him the last time for that day, i kissed him good bye and his eyes opened and he started to grasp my hand, i went out got a nurse and pop got moved to a 2br room so he was by himself in one and they put a bed in the other one for me.
Over the next 6 weeks i stayed with him and he got back to full health and all the nurses and doctors believed it was because of me and he got strong because of me.
Since then he has been up that road and back again but every time i visit him he always gets better.
In october he got really sick and the doctors said that he would die so we all visited.. I found out i was pregnant on the day i visited him (the 9th of october) and on the 12th i miscarried and he got better again and came home.
So after all of the "background info" more like i somewhat feel he is living for me and i love him so much for it!! But i am also thinking maybe i wont get pregnant until he passes, as my baby will be his reincarnation but am i being stupid for feeling that way? We've already decided that our 1st son will be named after him. I talked to DF about the way i feel about it all and he just says everything happens for a reason.
So have you ever thought/experienced something like this?
TBH i would feel honored if my child was a reincarnation of my poppy because he is such a gentle nice person!!
Everyone i do understand the full meaning of reincarnation but im thinking it'd be like a shallow reincarnation.
Again sorry for the long rant!!! and all the
Anything would be helpful to put my mind at ease!!