not sure how to say it

[pookiebear]

I have so much going on in my life at the moment and not sure if i am dealing with it all right.

Well where to start, I am engaged and due to our our engagement party in a few weeks, i have 3 children, 2 to my ex and one to my fiance. Over the next few weeks i have to go to court over a debt with centrelink where i was on the single parent payment after me and my ex separate and was working full time and raising 2 kids and i had incorrectly put in some of my income wrong due to not getting pay slips and having such a busy life, so i have the court case really playing on my mind, then i have our engagement party and last week i just found out that my pap smear test after having my bub 8 weeks ago has come back abnormal for the second time in a year. I cant remember what the doc said it is but basically now i have to go up the hospital and have some cells burnt out, which looks like that will be happening in about 6 weeks. To top things off my fiance's friends have just recently came up to me and told me not to screw him over.

His such a great guy, his accepted me and my older two kids and now we have a beautiful baby girl, but why do i keep thinking he can do so much better?? My lawyer has said i will get a criminal conviction as they really try to make a point of punishing ppl that have debts with centrelink. I'm scared! What are ppl going to think after the court case, am i going to cop more negativity from my partners friends, im really not sure how much more i can take

[3'llhavetodo]

To start with
Then sometimes you just have to look at things a different way. He is with you because he loves you . If he wanted to be with someone else he would be.
If you are interested there is an online kinda councelling thingie you could check out. http://moodgym.anu.edu.au/welcome It's helpful to retrain the way you interperet things.

OK brain is shutting down so best of luck hun XO

[Chickadee]

:Hugs:
What the PP said. He loves you and wants to be with YOU.

It sounds like you just have so much going on that it's overwhelming with stress. Can you pass on some of it to someone else, like the party planning & details?

... last week i just found out that my pap smear test after having my bub 8 weeks ago has come back abnormal for the second time in a year. I cant remember what the doc said it is but basically now i have to go up the hospital and have some cells burnt out, which looks like that will be happening in about 6 weeks.

More . Did you doctor say CIN or mild dysplasia? It is a scary thing to find out, but I want to reassure you that it is not cancer and is treatable. Burning the abnormal cells out is just preventative. I'm a bit surprised that they are going ahead with that on just the basis of a pap smear, or even two. I've had this twice now and both times had to have a colposcopy (microscope examination of the cervix surface) and biopsy of the cells before getting the cells burnt off with lasers. It is scary, and a little painful, but I went on to have my DD after my 2nd If you have any questions don't hesitate to ask me.