I'm 35 weeks now and my baby is still breech. I have been and will continue to do everything I can to turn him but as time goes on I'm worried he is not going to move. Where I live a vaginal breech birth is not allowed and I will have to have a c/s if he doesn't move down. The midwife told me that due to a flawed study which has now been heavily disputed all the drs lost their skills at delivering a breech normally. This is the thing that kills me, my baby and I are perfectly healthy and they want to cut into me.
I was somewhat prepared for an emergency c/s but the devestation and loss I feel over never even being allowed to labour with my child, to feel his readiness to come and to feel the transition to motherhood that goes along with the working to bring him out is heartbreaking.
I know that as well as trying to turn my baby I need to come to terms with having a c/s if that's what happens. I was hoping there might be some suggestions out there about how to still take control and be active in the birth. I know the drs will have the way they do things but what can I do? What can I ask to be done? I'm frightened that I will be laying there with a sheet covering my view. I will be in a sterile surgical environment, I won't be able to feel or help my baby be born, see him being born. It is like at some point I'll be pregnant and the next someone will hand me my baby with no in between and I'm terrified that it will effect me in my feelings of self worth and in bonding with my baby and feeling like he actually came out of me. I know that sounds aweful and I love my baby more than life itself and just want him to be healthy but I'm still scared.
Sorry this is a bit long but any suggestions on how to stay active in a c/s birth would be so much appreciated.