i want a new life....

[tyler's mum]

i know there have been many treads about pnd/depression but i just need to have a vent feeling really low today,,

i know the title says i want a new life what i really want is a HAPPY life, if not for me but mostly for tyler i dont want her to grow up with a sad mum, i want to show her its ok to be sad but you can move on from your problem's

i have been depressed for a long time, then i got pnd it hit me really hard my mum/dad stayed with me for 2weeks after tyler was born to help me because i was so down, im so lucky i have great parents and my sister is a lot of help aswell,,

i have so many mixed feeling, i never no what im feeling from 1 day to the next, but it always comes down to all these feeling, sadness, anger, exhaustion, emptiness, guilt, shame, anxiety, panic, lack of interest in pretty much everything.. some time i even find it hard to get the energy to play with tyler, i alway make myself, dont get me wrong i want to play with tyler i love her she means everything to me,, i think she is really the only thing that keeps me goin

i take meds they help me a bit, and im finally taken the next step and have booked in to see a psychotherapy i dont see him till the 26th of oct so hope he can help me sort my life out

ok i think i have enuff

[TwoBlue]

to you i know how you feel

It was only an hour or so ago that i said to my DS through tears.." i am sorry i am so angry.. mummy doesnt want to be angry anymore..."

You are not alone on how you feel....

Its great that you have such a supportive family

Have you been seeing a cousellor? I started sessions a few weeks ago and they have been so great!!

anyway just wanted to let you know you werent alone and that i am always here with a cyber shoulder to cry on

[tyler's mum]

thank you tracey,, hugs to you aswell