Im am an everyday user of BH, and am currently more than 13 weeks pregnant, I changed my name for privacy.
Due to problems with my partner im choosing to have an abortion,
We were both happy to have this baby but he changed his mind recently and I dont feel I want to be connected to him for the rest of my life,
We have announced our pregnancy to both our families and friends also.
We have been together a while and we are both at the right age, we are both well off financially but things have changed between us lately and I feel that when our baby is born our problems will only get worse,
I dont want to have a child whose father isnt involved in his or her life either.
Im catholic and this has been a very difficult choice for me.
I hoped we would have a family but now I dont see that happening, It saddens me to have to do this and im not sure how I will go when the time comes in a week and a half to have it done.
My partner is very abusive as of late and I have considered having our baby alone but I feel it will only give him a reason to keep coming back into my life.
In the past he has used other factors to "get me to re enter our relationship" and I am sure that this will be a big one he will use if i continue with it,
I guess due to his abuse I have a low self esteem and I have always taken him back and I always regret it but I fear this is something I will repeat over and over again if I am connected to him for the rest of my life,
Family have asked me not to do it due to it being more dangerous in the 2nd trimester.
I was over the moon to be finally pregnant and I couldnt wait to get to this point, starting to show, feel movements ect, but his voiced his opinion so many times about him not wanting this baby, that he thinks he will leave after it is born without warning and other remarks, wanting me to have an abortion, he has slowly dragged me down to where I just dont feel the same way about this pregnancy as I did and I no longer see it in a good light, I only see it as an attachment to a person I would like out of my life in everyway.