I'm at a loss to where to look for help.
I'm 22 struggling with depression since I was 10. I was finally settled with a fantastic job in my chosen field and on the verge of getting my own place but then I found out I was pregnant and not just pregnant into the second trimester pregnant. I was going to have an abortion but couldn't bring myself to do it knowing it was fully formed. My family were fine about it actually most were thrilled but feel I have no support now it's all there for after the birth.
I got into a hospital but they haven't told me anything the doctor just asked past history, sent me to get some more blood tests before tacking on 'any physical problems?' before saying bye bye.
I don't even know what facilities they have they were just really ****ty that I didn't know I was pregnant sooner.
I've tried asking friends for help but they're just worried, my mother just tells me to stop crying and to shut up, so does my sister actually. I just feel so worthless and occassionally suicidal. I don't want to go back on drugs though as the ones I was on will mean baby has withdrawal symptoms.
I'm now house sitting which saves on hotel costs as I can't stay at home, after they get back my boss has said I can stay with them which is nice but they don't know how i'm feeling.
I just want some one to talk to but no idea where to start.