here it is... THE TRUTH that is.
im 18 turning 19, only hav 1 lil boy. born in april. my partner is 42. i dont hav fertility issues and never took clomid. all a lie. i only seen Dr Bates once. hes a good Dr but yes pushy n can be a lil snip-happy IYKWIM. my life is pretty normal. altho some would debate why someone my age wants kids (answer? cos i do hav early onset menopause threatening me). until i met my DP i thought id need to use IVF to hav babies when i was older! but now im happily engaged with ONE lil boy and a loving fiance. i kno iv hurt alot of ppl on this forum and that is why i apologise for my actions. IM SORRY. n i will take no further part in forum discussions and will leave u all in peace. i am a compulsive liar alot of the time i dont even realise im lying sometimes. i even hav a counselllor ( all my yimg started when i was ashamed of my father).
everything i said about Dr Bates is true. he is good dr, tho if u ladies want drug free birth do not let him talk u into anything!! he does do alot of Csections, why i chose him.
i dono wat else to say i cant even remember most of wat iv claimed but i kno wat is true. prob is as a compulsive liar i just do it n then i trap myself own with more lies and it gets out of control. i almost lost my partner over this. but with help im getting better n when it gets hard i kno coming clean n apologising is best n then i walk away to save ppl more pain.
so let me say this again...
I DID NOT TAKE CLOMID N DONT HAV PROBS FERTILITY WISE, but I DO hav family his of early menopause.
I have ONE son. he was born on 30/4/09. i hav had a m/c in August 07 n July08.
it was my own choice to hav another baby now. even after my C/S. i kno its a risk but im ashamed to say im willing to take it. but unless u face only a few yrs left to complete a family u hav no idea wat it feels like. my mum wanted 6kids n only got 3! she had menopause at 26 n her mother at 23.
i suffer from depression sometimes.
i cant think of anythin else but anythin else u can take as a lie too.... cos if it was true i shouldv already mentioned it. IM SORRY. there would b too many to count.... easiest way is for me to sayto u wat i say to my friends... dont take wat i say too seriously. they see me reularly n kno how compulsive my lying is. it hurts ppl too.
thats why all i will say now is SORRY.
n i will leave these forums n ask for my account to be close so i cant hurt any others...iv done enough damage when all u ladies wanted to do was give support :'( IM SORRY. please dont take this as a reason not too trust each other. im just one compulsiv liar... that shouldnt affect ur judgement of others.
nothing i will say makes it right n i kno this but all i hav on ere is words.... IM SORRY!