I am 36wks but am expecting m first bubba any day as I had a show last week and was found to already be 1-2cm dilated. Naturally my anticipation is very high at this time and I have been running around trying to do as much as I can
Today I was sorting out the baby's room and moved a whole lot of stuff we had been given and had bought ourselves over the last few months and all of a sudden it "hit" me that we had no room to store this stuff. We were not able to afford a wardrobe for the baby's room so bought a 4 draw tall boy but clearly it is not going to do the job. I had tried to explain this to my husband months ago but he has no idea what is actually involved with a new baby! We have nappies everywhere at the moment and I am a crying mess as we still have lots to buy and no money to buy it with. One of my other concerns is that we dont have adequate heating in our house as our gas heater is no longer working and we just can not afford a new one at this stage. Last night it was -1 degrees and I dont want to bring my baby into a home that isnt warm enough. I dont know how we are going to cope. I have given up work but only plan to stay away for 6 months as this is all we can financially afford to do. It breaks my heart that I cant stay at home with my baby for longer than this
My parents have been good so far in their support both emotionally and financially during my pregnancy but there is only so much help you can ask for. I dont want to ask them again to help us out as I feel so guilty.
Is it normal to feel this apprehensive just before your baby comes? I am a slobbering mess at the moment! I just can't stop myself from crying and feel very alone. I know things are probably not as bad as I am making them seem in this post. It is just so overwhelming with everything that needs to be bought and done. I have been in great spirits thru out my pregnancy until now.
Thanks for reading and sorry for this huge post!
36wks 4 d