A and B Chatter

**Booo** · 30-03-2009 17:26

This is a place for Body Image Issues and Eating Disorders to be spoken about, to know your not alone....

Im Bean and as selfish as I sound I really want someone who is going through what I am to talk to...

**studyingECS** · 30-03-2009 17:37

I will join in if that's okay?

Having a few issues myself at the moment.

Hope you are okay.

**Booo** · 30-03-2009 17:40

Yeh just need to actually control something in my life, sadly its usually my weight. So feeling fat and icky. Wishing I was someone else.

**studyingECS** · 30-03-2009 17:45

I can empathise.

PM me if you want to chat

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**Booo** · 30-03-2009 17:55

Ive been doing the whole binge and purge for so long my body doesnt even wanna think about food.... Its gotten that bad that my gag reflex just naturally kicks in a few mins after I eat....

**Luna Lovegood** · 30-03-2009 20:31

Don't feel so guilty honey.

Just because you feel this way doesn;t mean you have done something wrong, or that you deserve to fel like this.

Sometimes the hardest thing is facing the issue at hand, and you're doing that which is wonderful.

I used to feel like you did, and sadly sometimes I think I am becoming obsessed again. Over the weekend and today I have done so much exercise that tonight I can barey walk. All I want to eat is soup. I'm worried I am going to look like a fat pig in my wedding dress.

There is so much pressure though. When I go through the wedding grown galleries on the net, the models are so perfect, and skinny, and I just don;t think I can be that.

After having a baby I have always thought that DF would leave me, because my body isn;t as tight as it used to be...

**confusd** · 30-03-2009 20:46

im supposed to be on a diet atm. but i eat to much even when i try not to i cant help myself.

Lately it has gotten to the point were i can only eat half of my food cause i feel fat and horrible. then i feel nauseous
if i eat take out like maccas etc i feel like vomiting even before ive eaten it.

then later on ill be starving and eat everything i can get my hands on.
Before i had DD i was skinny was always skinny no matter what i ate.and i felt fat.
after having DD i had put on like nearly 30 kilos and still have all of it but about 3 kilos

i dont think i can help much, i mean i cant even help myself atm, but i though id share so you dont feel alone

**earthfairy** · 30-03-2009 21:40

Hi Girls,

For so long i have suffered with extremely low self esteem, ive hated the way i have looked ever since having a relationship with a man (if you could call him that) who used to hit me & tell me how hideous i was.

I have suffered from depression, anxiety on top of bullemia.

I no longer have the bullemia but the low self esteem has never gone away.

I have size DD boobs - i hate them
I have fat wobbly arms & refuse to wear singlet tops - i hate them too
I have stretch marks & cellulite - i hate it all
I have a muffin top - i also hate that
I have a fat face - its gross.

Then, on friday i got some news that rocked my world. My cervical cancer has returned.

Im 28 this year & to get this news is devistating.

Really makes me put things into perspective. Seriously, who cares if i have a bit of a muffin top?

Id have 500 muffin tops if it meant i was guaranteed to live to see my 12 week old daughter grow up...

Im not posting this for sympathy or to make you feel bad....just my rambelings i guess.

WHy is it as women we always put ourselves down? My best friend thinks i have a seriously distorted view of myself, i cant help it.

Why cant we all see how truly beautiful we are, inside & out....

Im giving each & everyone of you a HUGE cuddle

EF x