Well as the title says, i dont want this baby. Im being compltely honest no matter how horrible it sounds. And yes it does sound horrible!!! I have 2 other kids and i never felt like this when i was pregnant with them no matter how down i was at the time.
I suffer from depression and had to go off my meds when i feel pregnant. I thought i could make it through, but the last few weeks its all on top of me. I had 3 anxiety attacks yesterday and ive only ever had one or 2 in my life and they were different to yesterday.
Im really scared for whats going to happen post birth. Surely if i feel like this now how can i bond with my baby? What if i dont want to feed her or be around her? My kids are so excited about having a little sister, but i cant share in their excitment, even though it makes me smile watching them talk about her like that.
I just want to go back in time and not be pregnant anymore. :-( How can someone not want their baby? I feel horrible.