Looking at Becsmum's reveal thread has made me realise just how GD pathetic I am. She saw that she needed to lose weight and she's doing it and doing a fantastic job of it might I say.
Me I've been overweight most of my life. At 10 years of age I was in ladies sie 10 clothes. My size basically went up with my age until it stopped at an 18. I somehow managed to maintain that size until after I had DS. The january after I had DS I had a misscarriage. To be honest it didn't affect me all that bad because it was only picked up on after the fact. had I known I was pregnant to start with I think it would have affected me more. The reason I added that was because a few people in my life have suggested that the weight gain that come afterwards was an emotional responce. It wasn't.
It wasn't until march 07 that I found out why everything was going cray for me. My cycle was out of whack and things just didn't seem right. Got in to see the gyno and I was diagnosed with PCOS. Now I had an excuse as to why I'd gained 20kgs. I milked it for all it was worth. Oh and I used the "its so hard to lose weight with PCOS" one all the time. Truth be known.....I never tried hard enough.
Now 2 years since my diagnosis I've managed to maintain the weight but I've never lost a significant amount. On top of this I now have IGT and HBP. I can't fall pregnant because of it, I can't play with my son because of it and yet I'm still making excuses. DH likes his sweet food so I buy it for him....I also eat it for him. I get lazy and at the drop of a hat will say we'll have take away tonight. DH wanted a pie today....I didn't have to get one but I did. I can't keep justifying this. I have to do something about it. Yes exercise is hard.....but it gets easier. Yes the foods a bit more expencive (compared to ok but not ideal home cooked meals).....but its cheaper than the meds and doctors bills.
I've got everything I need to lose the weight except one thing.....my belief in myself that I can do it.
From now on.....I can and I WILL!!!