I've joined here after a terrible experience with the management customer service at another community site, I haven't posted anywhere for a while but now I find myself looking for others who understand - I know that people with low post numbers are probably looked on a little strangely but I am a genuine mum who just needed some understanding ears for a minute, so I'll ask in advance for your indulgence.
My partner can always pick when I'm pregnant, he said months ago he thought that I was. Sore boobs, weight gain, off meat, tired etc etc.. I took a test and it was negative so I put it out of my mind - he kept asking me to take another but to be honest as much as we didn't want another baby (DS 3 and DD 1) I knew that if I was pregnant we would keep it and so I just thought I'd let nature take it's course and Que sera sera....
A couple of weeks ago I had some cramping and thought I was getting my period back (first one since baby) but nothing eventuated so I ignored it, I have Polycystic Ovaries so it's all screwy anyway.
Last night I had a large rush of blood, thought ok - here it is, not pregnant - period is back, went and put on a left over maternity pad and forgot about it. Half an hour later I'm sitting on the couch and get the feeling that I have to go to the toilet, as I stand up I get two rushes of what I think is blood, I'm worried it will go everywhere so I wait and then make my way to the loo. It's not blood and it's not urine. Immediately I know it's amniotic fluid.
The cramping and bleeding has been going since - the bleeding is very heavy tonight. I went to the doctor today, he told me that it couldn't have been amniotic fluid as it would have been too early and that they'd do a blood test but he was so rude and I figured it didn't matter anyway as the result was going to be the same (no baby), and he made me feel like i must have been wrong. I don't believe in doctors involvement in most of mine and my kids life and not in normal birth so why the hell I decided to go to one today is beyond me!
I went home and checked again from the garbage (sorry - gross) it was not blood and not urine.... I've searched online and have managed to find other women who have reported the same thing, a rush of water followed by a miscarriage, and also said that their drs have said it wouldn't be.
I know that it wasn't a confirmed pregnancy, and I know that the dr says it wasn't fluid but I still feel like I've lost this baby. I sit here not knowing what to expect but feeling very alone. I haven't miscarried before and I don't know if I'm waiting to pass something that I'll notice or not. My partner is being amazing, he stayed home with me today and is being really supportive, I'm lucky.
I guess I wanted to know if anyone else had experienced anything similar - I feel a little crazy and a lot alone tonight.
I look forward to reading some of the other stories in this forum and hope that I can add something of value here.
Thanks for listening