Did not realise i had a problem till now.

[quaver]

I had to have a c section. It was not emergency but the decision was made a week before i was booked in for reasons too long i wont go into. To be honest i was relieved at the time and so involved in my baby that it was just what i did.
now a year later i am feeling like i missed out. that i am not complete because i did not go through it all. I think it has come to light because i am feeling so jelous! a friend of mine just had a little boy. she had booked in for an elective c section the whole 9 months. but she went early and felt contractions, her waters breaking and then had a c anyway. i just cant get over this feeling of that is not fair! even though she did not want to she felt the onset of labour. i wish i could just feel happy for herm which i do but there are these hidden feelings. i feel like a terrible person to admitt them. so i thought this was the best place to vent. thanks for listening.

[joalisha]

hi, i understand completely, i had a c-section when i was only 30 weeks, so i not only missed out on labour, but seeing and feeling my belly get bigger! how my husband and i get though is thinking of next time, we are hoping to have it naturaly! i want to experance it all! i have no friends or family that have ever a c-section! so it hard for them to know how u are feeling!

[SassyMummy]

I understand how you feel.

I had a caesarean, which was classed as elective. It was decided upon the day before it was done... which was at 42 weeks.

I was very disappointed, but at the time, I kinda just got on with it.

It wasn't until a few months after her birth that I really started to care about it so much. Especially when I'd hear of people who went into labour, but had a c-sec anyway. I was so jealous... why couldn't fate just do it the other way around? Why couldn't it put ME into labour? I'm the one that wanted it, after all.

Another thing that made it worse, was the "you're so lucky you had a caesarean... my labour lasted umpteen hours...etc etc." That's great that you would have preferred a caesarean, but you probably only preferred one because you had no idea what it was like. Especially when it wasn't what you wanted. Especially when you wanted to experience birth itself...

I really do feel that I've missed out, and thus any future babies I have will be born via my vaginal canal, and not my stomach, unless it really is life or death.