I had to have a c section. It was not emergency but the decision was made a week before i was booked in for reasons too long i wont go into. To be honest i was relieved at the time and so involved in my baby that it was just what i did.
now a year later i am feeling like i missed out. that i am not complete because i did not go through it all. I think it has come to light because i am feeling so jelous! a friend of mine just had a little boy. she had booked in for an elective c section the whole 9 months. but she went early and felt contractions, her waters breaking and then had a c anyway. i just cant get over this feeling of that is not fair! even though she did not want to she felt the onset of labour. i wish i could just feel happy for herm which i do but there are these hidden feelings. i feel like a terrible person to admitt them. so i thought this was the best place to vent. thanks for listening.