Hi, I don't want to talk too much about either of my birth stories as both are something I would rather forget.
The reason I am so traumatised is that everytime I had an internal during labour, I thought I would die! The pain was so terrible that I can not even begin to explain.
With DD2 I begged the midwife not to do one as when I had the second one with DD1 I just lost control and ended up with an epidural. She did it anyway and couldn't feel how far dilated I was initially so kept her fingers in there with 2 other midwives pinning me down saying 'just a bit longer' over and over again. I wonder why me screaming no for them to get away went unnoticed? I understand that women often say things like that and don't mean it, but when they knew me throughout the pregnancies and had watched me cope with only gas through posterior labours, they should have listened and realised something was wrong.
Anyway, what I really wanted to know is if anyone else experiences this intensity of cervical pain during and internal? Oh, and I should say that when I am not in labour, I don't find internals painful.
Sorry for the waffle....