I was surprised at how many people have read and supported me through my birth trauma, so i thought i'd give you a little update for those who have been following my story.
Here is a link from the 1st part
Ok so i finally went to my doctor, and i burst out in tears and told her everything, about my anxiety, depression, not handling things. So she set me up with a mental health plan.
I started seeing my psychologist in January and i have had 11 sessions. In that time i have been diagnosed with social anxiety, panic attacks, agrophobia and mild OCD. Wow what a nutbag i am huh?!
We have been working on different tecniques and it has been a huge help. I can't believe how much it has helped me. I have become a btter mother also because this whole trauma impacted on not just me but the kids as well.
I still have my bad days when i don't want to leave the house at all and i spend most of the day yelling at the kids but im really working hard on it. I am not on meds yet, i am trying to hold off for as long as possible. I really want to heal on my own and not mask it with meds.
So emotionally i am healing. physically im not healed. Im still haven't got the courage to do so.
As for legal proceedings? Im not sure yet. It will be 5 yrs in September so i will have to make up my mind by then. I requested my hospital records but there wasn't much in there. They covered there butts pretty well.
I just want to thank everyone who has been involved with my journey. Its still a long way ahead but i really want to arrive there.
Thanks to all that have PM'ed me with their owns stories. Stay strong and don''t be afraid to ask for help. Its out there.
Thankyou to everyone that has supported me. If it wasn't for BH i don't know if i would be on my way to healing.