An update from my birth trauma

**Fuchsia!** · 09-05-2008 22:29

I was surprised at how many people have read and supported me through my birth trauma, so i thought i'd give you a little update for those who have been following my story.

Here is a link from the 1st part
http://www.bubhub.com.au/community/f...d.php?t=114362

Ok so i finally went to my doctor, and i burst out in tears and told her everything, about my anxiety, depression, not handling things. So she set me up with a mental health plan.

I started seeing my psychologist in January and i have had 11 sessions. In that time i have been diagnosed with social anxiety, panic attacks, agrophobia and mild OCD. Wow what a nutbag i am huh?!

We have been working on different tecniques and it has been a huge help. I can't believe how much it has helped me. I have become a btter mother also because this whole trauma impacted on not just me but the kids as well.

I still have my bad days when i don't want to leave the house at all and i spend most of the day yelling at the kids but im really working hard on it. I am not on meds yet, i am trying to hold off for as long as possible. I really want to heal on my own and not mask it with meds.

So emotionally i am healing. physically im not healed. Im still haven't got the courage to do so.

As for legal proceedings? Im not sure yet. It will be 5 yrs in September so i will have to make up my mind by then. I requested my hospital records but there wasn't much in there. They covered there butts pretty well.

I just want to thank everyone who has been involved with my journey. Its still a long way ahead but i really want to arrive there.

Thanks to all that have PM'ed me with their owns stories. Stay strong and don''t be afraid to ask for help. Its out there.

Thankyou to everyone that has supported me. If it wasn't for BH i don't know if i would be on my way to healing.

**Jinglebells** · 09-05-2008 22:32

thats great chick, i'm glad to hear things are slowly getting better for you

**Benji** · 09-05-2008 22:35

Thanks for the update Jaxcoop. You are so brave for sharing your story with us

I'm so glad to hear things are finally starting to look up for you.

Good luck with the rest of your journey. I really hope you can at least do something about that hospital!

**Fuchsia!** · 10-05-2008 14:48

Thanks ladies, as i said i really appriciate your support

**StrawberryTheMilkshake** · 10-05-2008 15:23

Hi Jax

Not trying to hijack your thread but i just wanted to add my 'late' support to you.

I had a tear that required surgery after my DD was born for 5 hours.

Of course, the physios were telling me to do my pelvic floor exercises but mine were sewn together, up to and including my cervix so this was not very plesant.

I have a severe case of incontinence because of this and have also suffered problems with emotions from this.

My story is no where near as traumatic as yours but i just wanted to add that i understand SOME of your troubles and pain.

Pm me if you wanted too...

STM

**Fuchsia!** · 10-05-2008 19:11

Thanks STM i think what you have gone through sounds horrible! Its good to know that im not alone out there. Thanks

**MrsP** · 10-05-2008 19:56

Sara,
I'm so glad to read your update & that things are improving for you on an emotional level.

L

**BreakfastatTiffanys** · 10-05-2008 20:02

It is so nice to hear that you are on your way to feeling better.

You are so brave, and have inspired so many other people through telling your story.

**Mischief** · 10-05-2008 20:21

Sara - Thank you for the update!

Im so glad to hear that you are on the path to recovery.... XX

**julietv8** · 10-05-2008 22:35

I read your story and I think that what happened to you is so horrible. It made me cry for you and it makes me so grateful for how blessed I was through my labour and birth. I'm so glad you are on the road to feeling better, but I would sue their asses off!!!