I'm a binge eater. I eat a big hit of food. Sometimes it's healthy, sometimes it rubbish, sometimes it's a combination of both... but there's always a lot of it entering my mouth per day.
Until the past Thursday.... and now I am barely eating anything.
Saturday, I didn't even eat anything at all. Even thinking about food... about putting something with calories in it into my body... it just makes me feel repulsed, and I just find it so hard to do.
Yesterday, Sunday, I ate. I went to Mums, and so I had a little bit of garden salad, a sausage, a bread roll, and a little nibble on the ear of an Easter Bunny.
I felt gross eating it. Like, I couldn't believe I was putting that garbage into my body... I just knew I had to, or my mother would have a go at me... and also because she cooked lunch (BBQ) for us, I felt it was a better idea to actually eat it than to not. It wouldn't have been nice... but it was an effort.
It's so strange though... because normally, I would have SO MUCH FOOD and then want more (but stop because I'd not want to seem like a pig).
I would have eaten my choccie eggs by now too... but tehy're sitting in the fridge, doing nothing. I've even had a Mars Bar Light in there since Thursday... normally it would have been gone straight away, but I think I'd eaten about a whole 1/2 inch off of it in the past few days...
Today I don't want to eat either. Just water. Anything more than water makes me feel gross.
I'm hte one that TURNS to food when in search of comfort, not refuses to eat... and I'm not even stressed out anymore... since agreeing to break up with DP on Saturday night, I've been really good emotionally.
I don't really know what is wrong... but it's getting annoying because I'm feeling like I'm going to faint all the time...
Has this happened to anyone else?
Mind you, I'm not a skinny girl, I'm a size 18, so losing a bit of weight from this is not going to do me too much in the way of damage...lol.
It's jsut so weird for this to happen to ME... someone who OVER and BINGE eats...