Okay this is a touchy one....does anyone else have/had a Eating Disorder?(ED) I would love to talk to people who have or had a ED..i'm going really well im 23wks and am putting on all the proper weight....which is soooo hard for me to deal with but I would never do anything to jeapodise my lil girl...she means the world to me already...but that dosant mean I dont stress and think about it all the time! Its really hard to bet the urges..its like a compulsive addiction. Alot of people (ie my mum have no idea about ED's..they think you can like switch it off wheneva you want...even though i've been bulimic since 13..i'm 22now! she still dosant get it..which hurts)..they dont realise its a Disease...its not a choice. Anyway I kinda just wanted to talk to anyone in the same situation as me...I find little things like pictures of Nicole Richie Almost trigger me...but for my baby I force myself not to...the only thing that keeps me going is the fact the I know straight after I have the baby i can be me again and like punish myself and work extra hard afterwards (people without ED wont understand that)
Please dont get the wrong idea about me I dont need to be ridiculed/put down for the way I am..and believe me your comments wont just magically fix me...I already have heard them all before and I have a professional helping me through my pregenancy....but I just wanted to talk to someone else that is/has been pregnant and knows exactly what i'm going through..so please PM me.
Anyway lol sorry this is sooo long...its hard to say what I want to..and its sooo hard for me to talk about it cos I dont tell anyone only my family and one bestfriend knows..i'm not proud of it....i'm deeply ashamed...more so now i'm pregnant..but remember everyone has there own demons...so please dont judge me.
Okay take care all!!