cried so much

**Allie T** · 09-03-2006 08:42

l dont know if this is the rigth place to write this but yesterday l found out l lost one of the twins as soon as l saw that baby there and couldnt hear that second heart beat l knew it wasnt going to be good news, the doc l had was really nice and said he will do more test to see what happened all l wanted was for the dead baby to come out and but the doc said l am sorry we cant do that as it will harm the other baby as you are still early in the pregnancy, l dont know how much l cried yesterday but it felt like l was going through it all over again, from now on l have to look after my self and make sure nothing happens to my other baby, l was crying last night and then l felt movements which made me happy and and my partner was happy to feel the movements after the news l had to give him when l got home from work, l told him while he was at work, l couldnt even look at him with out bursting into tears. l know l have to look after my self and and keep thing little baby heaalthy and make sure nothing happens to it.

**the_queen** · 09-03-2006 08:45

I have no advice, just hugs. You'll get lots of support here on bubhub. If I could put more than 4 smilies I would.
((((hugs))))

**Briannabear** · 09-03-2006 09:52

Oh Allie you poor thing.

Big hugs to you

**My3kids** · 09-03-2006 10:25

I'm so sorry, If you need to talk PM or email me. My DS1 was a twin, lost his twin at 9 weeks I had to wait and watch him disappear through weekly ultra-sounds. Again I'm really sorry you have to be going through this. BIG HUGS and best wishes.

Thinking of you

**Funkychicken** · 09-03-2006 12:10

Hey Allie,
You poor darling. How crushing for you. Losing any baby, twin or not is tragic. You need a lot of support right now and there are groups that are set up for parents in your situation. SANDS and BONNIE BABES are two groups that you may like to cantact. I'm not exactly sure which group but there is one set up for parents who have lost one or more of their multiples.
It's going to be tough for you as many people will offer advice such as "At least you still have one". People mean well but it is those that have 'been there' that will be able to empathise. Hugs to you and take time to grieve.

**LittleBoysRock** · 09-03-2006 13:25

I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I cant imagine how hard it would be.

Thinking of you and your Partner.

OM · 09-03-2006 13:46

Oh you poor thing! HUGS~

**MustangMumma** · 09-03-2006 20:40

Im so sorry this has happenend. Big hugs to you

. I dont even know what to say cause i dont know how you are feeling right now. Us girls are here for you.

**brooke** · 09-03-2006 20:44

I have no words that will make it easier for you...
But we are all hear to listen! Big Hugs to you and my prayers are with you and your husband and your unborn bubba!

**Bewitched** · 09-03-2006 21:35

I am so sorry for you

. I lost my identical girls at 30 weeks to a twin to twin transfusion, i understand the pain completely. Yes you have to look after yourself but i know this is easier said than done.

For every tear of grief you shed, may every second tear be one of joy for your little survivior xoxo All the best.