Hi, just wanted to know if anyone has suffered a similar situation and how you have dealt with things.
About 3 months ago I had a panic attack and with that attack came a stupid thought and since then I have been thinking and thinking no stop ever since. I look on the net and search this thought and I know it is not true and not something I desire, but it has put the fear of god in me and the more I think the more I am looking for answers and the more I get anxious and nervous. I worry about things I see and places I go and even my relationship with my DH and this is what fears me most, the thought of this obsessive thought breaking up what I know and love with my DH.
My psycologist tells me this thought is a fear, but I am making it into an obsession and I need to stop thinking.
DH & I have been going through a few stresses of late and this doesn't help matters, but the stresses seem to have settled a bit but the thoughts are still coming, the only time they are not is when I am occupied with other things, like work or going out with DH or other family functions, I guess these are call safe places, but at home I am going and going and surfing the net is the only thing I seem to do that I think helps, but I can't stop.
I am going to the gym and I am trying to get new intrests in my life, and think of other things but this is hard and I am getting really anoyed and I want it to stop and stop now and I really need to stop searching the net, it is like I am looking for reassurance. I have never had this before will I have but not as long as I have this time round, but I guess I am the only one that can stop it, but man I want someone to stop it and tell me I am not going crazy or my obsessive thoughts could be true.