As I sit and start to write this I cant belive Our Beautiful Girl is almost a week old.. It feels like Yesterday..
We had been in hospital for a long time with my Kidney but on the 18th I was allowed home with a Nurse comming to the house each day so we felt pretty safe! We started having contractions on the 20th but they were very scattered and to be honest.. I figured they were wind pain I was surprised when I realised they were an hour apart.. I freaked! Rang the midwife who said "its all good hour apart is not real Labour and said to take some Panadine and get some rest. few hours later.. Nothing! Was so mad!!!
21st we had an app with OB who said I was 2-3 CM dialated ! WOO_HOO! and did a stretch and sweep which gave me some cramps and got Chris and I VERY excited that things may happen soon. Dr Steele also said I was Very Stretchy (what every woman likes to hear! NOT!!!) and may have a quick labour! (I did like the sound of that!) He hooked us up with Apps for CTG to track that Roara was still doing well We figured she may be born before the first one that was next day! But just incase we were booked in for induction on 26th. as a relife to have an end date!!
That night we had exciting 20 min apart contractions but no baby! and when we were hooked up to the monitor it only registered one contration so we were sent home.. still contracting at 20-40 mins apart, but by nightfall they had stopped again SOOOOOO FRUSTRATING!!!
We had the same for the next few days On and off contractions.. got exciting and 10 mins apart on voting day! Oh!!! This is it we both thought!!! Back to hospi and once again no measurable contractions.. was starting to feel like a real hypercondriac by this stage! and wondering again.. is it just gas?? Was Drinking Extra strength Mylanta like cordial but not helping so starting to belive it might be the real thing.
Sunday night Chris and I were pretty unsettled (talking alot about the induction! going OMG she will be here tomorrow, or if really long labor maybe the next day! HOW EXCITING!!) Watched Maternity ward and got very clucky.. Notcied I was feeling a bit Sick..
Went to bed around 12am and was up every 20 mins or so with a pain that made me feel like I really really REALLY needed to poo.. but nothing... Took me probably till 1am to realise they were quite regular.. Hmm are they contractions I thought.. Rang Middie when they were 15 mins apart and she suggested hot bath and panadine..
Was still in lots of pain but tried to go to bed again.
Woke up at 3.35 with a WOPPING contration and a huge urge to pee. Could not for the life of me roll onto my side to get out of bed so stayed wimpering through contraction. Got up and felt all this water comming down my legs.. When I said "Chris I think my waters broke" He JUMPED up and got the light on in like one leap! (very impressed!) and we stared as it came pouring out I'm still going "do you think thats what it is! as its gushing!) All clear so happy with that (Jay came and tried to drink it out of the carpet So Gross!!!)
We got up all freaked out but excited and I rang the midwife again to report water breaking.. was kind of dissapointed that she seemed to think we still should stay home for a while as contractions were still 10 mins apart.
Jumped into the shower and had another gush and by the time I got out Contractions were 6 mins apart and I was quietly panicking.. Tried to gather anything we needed bag wise while Chris was in the shower.. Though by that stage contractions were 6 mons apart and I MEAN 6 mins right on the nose.. I was getting more and more scared.. Suddenly 4 Mins apart and I am in the toilet trying to Poo (Was Soooo scared of poo'ing in front of Chris at delivery) Pushing, Pushing but nothing but horrible preassure and increased contractions..
Panickied very badly now I wanted to hospi really REALLY bad.. I did not care if we were 24 hours away from delivery.. I needed drugs.. and someone who new what they were doing! was at the stage I could not talk, walk or focus on anything other than the contractions.
We live approx 8 mins from teh hospi and Chris got me there in 6! I was yelling at him and starting to get raw fear. Wishing we had called an ambulance.
It was approx 5.25 when we arrived at hospi ringing the security bell like mental paitents! It took about 10-15 mins to walk from the car to the maternity ward (a usual 2 min walk!) Found myself having to stop for a mighty contraction and was shaking in fear and pain.. Had no Idea Chris was even still with me at this stage.. Totally within myself..
Middie was very frustrating.. she started to walk us down the corridor and then doubled back as she did not know what room we were in.. she kept saying I would have ages to go yet which freaked me out as I really did not think I could cope with the pain even 2 mins more (and was contracting every 2 mins) She finally got us in a room and asked for a urine sample... I actually said NO It hurts too Much at which she replyed (As patronising as hell) Yes, It does hurt.. Its suppose to.. I was shattered and wanted to kill her. She was getting kind of mean and saying "don't get funny with me" when I again refused to give a sample.. She repeated that first birth take a while and I piped in with Dr Steeles comment that I might be quick.. but could not remember why.. so she examined me. Thank GOD because as soon as she did she went "You are going to meet your baby really soon" I dont even think I registered what was going on. Though Chris said I did immediatly Yell I WANT AN EPIDURAL Which obviously I was WAY too late for.. I did get gas thou!!! I wimpered eveytime the Middie left (which was only to get gas and let other staff know) Cried out for my Mummy and Middie kindly agreed to be mine! (we were alot nicer to each other after apologies for not beliving I was in Labour!) At Approx 5.50 I screamed "GET THAT LADY BACK HERE I NEED TO PUSH!" She was right outside the door and had been gone all of 2 seconds!!! She had me pull my thighs back and I gave 2 good pushes allowing Chris to see teh head start to crown, then she went back.. Decided to give it my all next push (did not want to have her half out half in, wanted it over!) One more Great big push and HEavy gas sucking and she was Born! 10 Mins after getting there!!! I was in complete and Utter Shock. (lasted all day!) It was like so easy (the delivery I mean!) It was teh labor that hurt the most.. totally opposite of what I expected.
They snapped my Placenta cord trying to pull it out and me being still freaked is screaming "Am I going to hemmoridge and die???!!!!" Middie was like NO!!!
Thats about all I remember.. Wish I had memories of cord cutting and seing her, but all I had was shock!
EDIT! - Rereading this did remember being told I had a second degree tear and waiting legs spread for like 40 mins for my dr to come and stich me up! I was so freaked out by the local (never having had one in the nether regions!) and Poor Vjayjay felt like it went down to my knees! Also, after worrying so bad about pooing I def did and it was so inconsenquencial (Who can spell that!?) It just did not matter at all so relax anyone also worried
Spent 20 mins saying " NEVER doing that again" "only child for us Chris" But within a few hours, cuddles and family time, I wanted to do it all again, right away!
I am amazed at what Chris and I have created together.
WELCOME TO THE WORLD AURORA
Mummy Shock first cuddle!
Daddy First Cuddle (so In love already!)
Full from Booby first feed
First car ride (I look so old and wise!)