Well, i finally did it. i have written to the hospy i birthed at and requested my medical records.......
i've been putting it off and off, but i have decided now i cant move forward without dealing with some of the emotions i still feel.
i need to know where things started to go so wrong, and WHY.
im feeling really nervous now, and im not sure what i'll do with the records once i finally get them. i dont even know if i will read them straight away. its daunting for me.
i know that by reading them, i will most likely be reminded of the whole experience again, and possibly learn things that i have no recollection of. i think this will be distressing for me.
who else has done this? have you found it helped you to heal, or just dug up upsetting memories?