Was-to-be EDD in 4 days

[MilkOnTap]

I have been reminiscing for the last couple of weeks about how on Monday the 20th of February I would have been due to give birth to my first baby. Just 4 days away.

I really have mixed feelings at the moment. One minute, I am sad that my baby had to go back to Heaven. The next, I am almost relieved - because DH is away for the next 6 months and may not have had the opportunity to meet his baby until the end of September.

I am upset that my baby didn't make it. But I know that it is happy and playing in a beautiful garden in Heaven, with all the other little babies who were much too precious for Earth.

On Monday night, I plan to share a quiet drink with DH to keep alive the thoughts of our first baby. Though it never made it to my arms, I will never forget it.

[madvoice]

(((hugs))) I think its a very good thing that you and DH will be sharing a quiet moment together. My thoughts are with you.

[drewid]

I feel for your loss Ally and will be thinking of you on Monday. *hugs*

[brooke]

oh ally **hugs**
There isnt anything I can say to make it any easier.... but sounds like you are staying quite positive...

[Chickadee]

Due dates and anniversaries are always hard Sending lots of hugs to you and your DH. I think it's great that you will have a little celebration of your angel's memory.

[Pixie]

Ally I have no idea what you are going through feels like..but you know I am always here for you and I hope that on the 20th of February you shall have peace of mind
And I will be thinking of you

[nut]

So sorry, Ally. These things are so hard. I know that you will always treasure your first baby.
Will think of you on Monday.

[Crazy Monkey]

Will be thinking of you on Monday, Ally..

[JATS]

*~*~*~*{{{HUGS}}}*~*~*~*

Know how you feel Ally, what would have been my Angel's 1st birthday was in June 05, not a happy day for me

It's ok to mourn, especially on those 'milestones'

[moonblossom]

HUGE hugs to you Ali, I will be thinking of you.

Bless you.