Hello All & I hope everyones having a good week!!
I hope you don't mind, but I just feel like I really need to vent. I suffered from Pnd with my first now 5 years and I'm currently preg with our second. I'm not sure if I am depressed or whether I'm simply feeling down. This was a planned & long awaited preg, but just lately i have been feeling really down.
When I was preg with my first, it was a pretty cruisy preg, no problems at all and I absolutely enjoyed the whole experience from day one. We had an emergency c- section with her, but aside from that everything was okay & all worked out fine!
This pregnancy has been completely different. From the time we found out we were pregnant, I feel like so many things have been going wrong. First I was under a little stress due to family issues, then I was faced with possibly getting my wisdom teeth out which didn't end up happening but was really painful. Then I started bleeding on and off for a couple of weeks when I was about 10 weeks pregnant which I was rushed to GP for on a number of occasions.
What makes me feel more alone though, is that we live in a very remote town, with only 2 Gps, and you would usually have to wait up to 2-3 weeks for an app & if its really bad you have to go to the hospital which I have also done. My gp is lovely but not really a social kind of person so will usually just sit there and listen to you while writing notes, and you leave not knowing really whats going on. He ran a few tests to see what the bleeding could be and found that my hcg levels had dropped enormously. It was really stressful.
When I reached 12 weeks (still bleeding on & off) a GF of mine mentioned Rh (d) negative and asked if I was a negative blood type. I didn't really know so checked my previous birth record book and found out I was. So I went back to GP and asked him whether that could be the reason I was bleeding. Straight away, he looked suprised and rushed me for an anti (D) injection. I felt frustrated that he didn't test my blood type in the first place as I've heard if a womans bleeding in preg they will usually run a test to make sure.
I am 18 weeks pregnant now and have still been bleeding on & off, i have also had another anti (d) injection to stop it. Its scary because if anything goes really wrong , we have to be flown to our nearest capital city via royal flying dr's which is approx 2 hours flight away.A visiting Gyno did a scan for me at 16 weeks ( we don't have a scan machine in town, so we have a visiting gyno with one, our nearest scan machine is a 5 - 7 hour drive away) and she said that the placenta was really low also & if thats the case I may have to get out of town by the 26th to 28th week just to be on the safe side as the hospital here has no birthing experience or facilities. (Usually we need to leave town at 36 weeks). I was also told that because I had a previous c-section that this could cause complications within the preg or possibly during the birth. I just feel so alone, confused about the whole thing and a little scared.
I've tried talking to my mum about it and in the begining she wouldn't even believe me that I was a neg blood type!!! I was telling her I def was as its on my prev birth records!!! ( I thought she would know that!!) When she did come finally accept that I was right, and I was telling her how alone & scared I was feeling she acted like I was completely over reacting and that she reckons there isn't a problem at all, even with the low placenta as it may move which I'm sure it may in anycase. I just don't think she understood, that its actually the isolation that makes it a little scarier as if anything does go wrong, its not a simple 20 - 30min trip to a city hospital, Its a long wait, Royal flying Dr to get here and then a 2 hour flight to the hospital. It hurt me that she played it down so much and acts like I'm been silly.
I'm so sorry for the long rant & rave. I've had no one to talk to about this, my husband works extremely long hours, my friends all work here and my family all lives in Perth. So I've been feeling really alone. and I'm usually by myself with my litlle girl for the majority of the day
Has anyone else experienced any of these things and if so how did everything go and how did you cope? Has anyone also been in an isolated area with limited prenatal care & How did you cope with the isolation? Its weird because we've lived in mining towns now for 10 years and I absolutely love living here!! I love the lifestyle. I guess I just didn't realise that in situations like this, it can become quite lonely and that the isolation feels a little magnified. Any comments or advice would be sooooo much appreciated.
I really appreciate you reading my rant, rave & whinge, it has felt so good to vent it out in the open. I'm just sorry it was sooooo long!!!!! I hope you all have a really great week and a fantastic weekend!!! Thanks again