Going 'undercover' in this thread as prefer not to use my normal username. Just need to vent anonymously.
I had pnd with DS (now 2), and only really admitted a problem and started taking meds early this year despite looking back and having had it pretty much the whole time. DP and I then got pregnant with #2 so came off meds despite being warned about having another baby so close to pnd.Have been doing well overall and we're now into the second trimester.
My problem is that I feel as though it's all starting up again - the negative thoughts, feelings of cant-be-bothereds, loneliness, exhaustion, feeling down, down, down.
I know I really should talk to someone but I just dont want to bring it all up again as I was doing so well. In particular, I dont want to upset DP by telling him how i feel, I know last time tore him apart watching me slide downhill. I also dont want to talk to my GP, I guess I just feel like everyone will tell me 'I told you so' for trying to get pregnant again so soon after pnd. Am hoping its just temporary and a few hormones are out of whack and that this isnt pnd taking hold again or antenatal depression kicking in? - wherever one stops and another starts who knows