Not good news I'm afraid!

[morganm2b]

Hey everyone. Unfortunately hubby and I went for a date scan tonight and found out that our bub's heart has stopped beating. It was all so surreal. I just kept thinking 'no this can't be happening to us'. It is our first pregnancy and it tooks us quite a while to fall pregnant. Anyway, I just wanted to say hi and thank you all for your support and chats and for answering my silly questions. You've all been super. Keep it up gals and good luck to you all. I hope I can join you again soon!! I've now got to go into hospital for a procedure to have the bub removed. Has anyone been through this? I am dreading it. Take care everyone and enjoy.

Julie

[sugar n spice]

your thread brought tears to my eyes. i am truly sorry to hear of your loss. cyber hugs from me and i am here to lend an ear. hopefully all will go well next time. best wishes and lots of hugs
rachel
im thinking of you

[Frazzled]

Julie, you poor thing. i really really feel for you, and am crying for you now. we lost our first baby too and it took a long time for us to get out second chance. i am so so so sorry for you and your husband.

I wish you well for tomorrow, just try to relax as much as you can. Please make sure you talk to people about how you both feel and your loss - it is the most important thing. I didn't and it took a long time for me to grieve.

you will both be in my thoughts and prayers, i wish i could give you a hug. hold each other tight tonight.

much love, kate x

[Lil X-men]

Hi Julie, I'm so sorry that you are having to go through this, it's so terribly dissapointing and heart breaking isnt it. My thoughts are with you both.

I had a M/C at 7weeks Gest (my 1st pregnancy too) and didn't have any procedure at all, I was just put to bed rest and the bub came out naturally.

Though it was painful physically, it was worse emotionally I just cried for days. We fell preg again six months later and now have our wonderful boy (9months old). I wish you all the best in your future TTC.:o

[veve]

oh hon...

I can not even imagine how you must feel right now - thank you so much for sharing your story with us... massive hugs to you... your post brought tears to my eyes..

I hope that your next hospital appointment goes smoothly (more hugs) - remember that we are all here to chat to if you ever need to talk.

thinking of you

xxxx

[Ffrenchstar]

I am so sorry to hear your news. O havent been through it so I can only imagine what it must be like:( Take care of yourself and allow yourself time to grieve....go gently:)

[reAllytee]

Sorry to hear of your loss. Use bubhub to help ease your pain there are so many amazing women on here who will help you through this dark period.
I watched my sister go through 10 & it was heartbreaking enough to be on the outside let alone be her.
I wish you all the best for the future.
****HUGS****

[shereejoy]

Oh Julie,

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I too lost my angel twins at different stages 5 weeks 4 days and 7 weeks we lost the hb to our 2nd twin. It is hard and there are hard times ahead, you need to grieve, but just know that it does get easier, but you will never forget your bubba. Again it is even harder when you try for so long and have an outcome like this. My babies wouldn't m/c naturally so I had a D&C. Sometimes I think this is the best way in that your uterus is completly cleaned out for you to start again and you are out to and unbeknowns to anything that is occuring unless of course you have a reaction to anisthectic like I did after the procedure and went as white as a ghost. My BP is noramlly 120/80 and it was 80/50. Felt so sick. But then on a better note, with this current pregnancy I discharged brown and some red from 5-8.5 weeks and then at nearly 12 weeks I woke in a pool of bed and passed a clot the size of my palm and was cramping, and amazingly we are ok. But too see all that happening exactly like a m/c was so so hard and must admit much harder then a D&C. Everyones experience is different, just hope and pray for you that yours goes smoothly and you recover well.

Take care of yourself.

[Cheekychops]

So sorry to hear about your bad news. Am thinking of you - and please don't stop chatting with us on the hub. It helps to talk things through - happy or sad. You'll get through this ok. Keep your chin up!

[poshBecks]

sending hugs.... sorry to hear of your loss.... we are all here for you...:o

[brooke]

sorry to hear about you loss...
Please dont feel like you cant use bub hub now... we are always here for you!

[morganm2b]

Thank you everyone for you kind words of support and understanding. They have been a big help to us both. I promise to continue to chat on bubhub and keep you all up to date when we start trying again. I have been booked in to have my d&c tomorrow. I am really pleased that it will be happening this week as I didn't really want to leave it any longer. Am still suffering the usual symptons of being pregnant so it will be good to move on. Thanks again everyone and best wishes to you all. Take care. x

[lukaelmo]

Julie, I'm really sorry to hear this.

[WeThree]

I am truly sorry for your loss :(

[moonblossom]

Were all hear for you if you need a shoulder.

[whatwasithinking]

sending hugs too - sorry for your loss

please don't go forever - stay with us we want to make sure you are ok.

[Lolo]

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I feel with you how painful it must be. I hope God blesses you soon.
Lolo

[Fairyfloss]

I am so sorry for your loss, here is a big hug coming your way, it is never easy to loos a bub, no matter how young they are, I had m/c twice before, and know how horrifying it is, For me the worst part was having high levels of PG hormones left in my blood, after the m/c so I was still feeling nausea, like I was PG so every time I felt sick I would cry my heart out, just remember it does get easier to deal with, with time, although you never foreget it.
For you D&C precedure today, try to relax and get lots of rest afterwards,
Good luck with you TTC journey

[Irish Dad]

So sorry to hear your bad news, some things in life just arn't fair :( My two boys where both very ill when they were born and I spent weeks feeding them through tubes and on a ventilator but they pulled through. Normally I smile when I read the threads but now I feel sad :( Theres nothing I can say

[kimmy]

Awww i'm so sorry to hear about your loss that's so sad:(
I hope things get better for you in the future.
take care of yourself I'm sending Hugs to you guys
xxxxxxxxx

[H&B'sMum]

(((((((((((hugs)))))))))))) So sorry to hear your news. Give youself time to grieve and we will always be here for you whenever you need us.

[tahliachloeboyd]

Im so so sorry for your loss. It is so sad, just remember there are many around you to talk to if you feel you need an ear.

Katrina

Tahlia 6.5.00
Chloe 10.9.02
Boyd 9.10.05

[brideofjabba]

Oh Julie, i'm so sorry to hear that! I hope your procedure went ok and that your feeling ok too.
Take care!

[morganm2b]

Hi everyone. Thanks again for your kind words of support. The D&C is over and am now feeling at a bit of a loss and empty. I just hate the thought of starting over again. It just doesn't seem fair does it. We had been trying since April last year. And I was so happy to have conceived shortly after my 35th birthday. We just have to stay positive I guess and hope that conception doesn't take as long this time. Apparently we need to wait two to three months before trying. I think we will just wait two and then go for it. I just so desperately want to be pregnant again. Thanks again everyone. You've all been very kind.

Julie
xx

[meshan]

I am so sorry that you have to go through this terrible loss. I know you can never forget or replace this baby but I do hope have a chance to become the brillant mother you are destined to be really soon!

[expectingtwins]

Hi Julie

This is my first time in this chat room and I felt compelled to write and give you my heartfelt sympathy for your loss. Similarly to you, it took me and my husband one year to fall pregnant the first time, only to be told at 9 weeks that our baby didn't have a heart beat. I can still remember that feeling of numbness as we walked out of the ob's rooms. I had to have the D&C as well which was emotionally awful. I thought I was fine until about 2 weeks later when it hit me hard!

As emotionally draining as the whole experience was, the most frustrating thing for me was that it meant I had to be so guarded with any future pregnancies. We had allowed ourselves to get so excited with that first pregnancy and as a result fell pretty hard.

It then took us another 17 months to fall pregnant again, interestingly one month after I went part time and we bought a puppy. Unfortunately we lost that one too and the timing couldn't have been worse - we were visiting my newborn neice when I miscarried. Despite telling myself not to get too excited, I obviously couldn't help it and naturally was pretty upset again.

When we were getting close to our 3 year anniversary since we had started trying, we decided to bite the bullet and have IVF. And I am glad to report that we are pregnant with twins after the first cycle. I'm only just 13 weeks so am only just starting to relax. I have a great ob who asked me to come in for weekly scans from 8 weeks because he knew how anxious I would be.

And the strange thing is although I should be super excited, I really still can't come to terms with the fact that I have 2 little lives developing inside of me. At each scan I look at the screen and think I'm looking at something on tv, not 2 little babies inside me. I'm praying that when I feel them move I'll start to bond with the idea of being pregnant and start to enjoy it more.

I didn't mean to write this much. I really just wanted to say that I'm truly sorry for your loss and to let you know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Hopefully yours is just around the corner.

[TwoBlue]

**hugs** to you, i am so sorry to hear of your loss

we are all here for you whenever you need to talk

[pthalokitty]

heart goes out to you and big hugs...friends of mine have gone through this- they found it really hard, particularly to be around kids and mums, but almost all have had subsequent pregnancies that went to term...hang in there ...
e xxoo

[morganm2b]

Thanks for your post 'expectingtwins'. It was a real inspiration to hear your story and I have all my fingers and toes crossed for you.

I feel that everyone around me thinks that I should be moving on now and should be getting over it all. But sometimes I think it's still sinking in. So it was interesting to hear what you said that it didn't hit you until 2 weeks later. I think at first I was just in denial, and then there was the D & C to cope with and the physical after effects of that ie. tiredness etc.

Anyway, thanks again for your post. I will be thinking of you and will keep you posted as to how we go when we start trying again in a couple of months.

Julie
:)

[neneales]

Julie-

I am soo sorry for ur loss! All our love goes to u and ur husband through this time! Ur story brought tears to my eyes! I wish u both all the very best for ur future! One thing I have always beleived is when a baby or child leaves us god really needed special angels to help us all! So know urs is helping someone special!

Big Hugs! Wish u all the best!

Teneale