Milestones........

[Foxymoron]

I sat with DS last night after everyone else had gone to bed watching home videos. He sat alongside me, enjoying the images of himself and his sisters on the screen. We watched my eldest childs first day at school...

It should be his turn this year. Instead he is starting kinder ( even though he still isn't at that level of understanding). I love him the way he is, and he helps me see the world through different eyes... his experience of life is so different. And yet he is so isolated at the same time, I feel a little sad for him, and there's part of me that wishes he was off to school this year.
Kinder will be something new, I know, I just feel sad :(

[Pixie]

awww Keara, he'll get there eventually just treat the kindy as a major milestone he'll make friends and hopefully have a fun time.
There is a reason for everything..and you said it yourself he helps you to see things differently :D it's sad in a way..yet in another you have something that give you the opportunity to see things in that way of life.

[Foxymoron]

Actually, it's highly unlikely he will ever get to a mainstream school. Kids with Global Delay and Autism don't 'catch up' so to speak.
I guess it's just preggie hormornes setting me off, and the worry that this little boy I carry will be afflicted with the same thing.

[lukaelmo]

You must be so proud of your little man going off to kinder, I hope he enjoys his time there...

[Pixie]

Keara, I think hormones must have a lot to do with it! And knowing your little boy has a special need. It all gets a bit to much sometimes.

I use to work with young adults with autism and other special needs..I know how hard it can be and frustrating and heart breaking..but then when they have a break through and achieve something it really makes the difficult times worth it.

I have great faith with children and autism I think that many people push them aside but after working with them I know they are capable of achieveing many great things who cares if they are small or great :D

[Mamaduke]

Hi Keara...
I've been reading alot of the poems that Sally Meyer writes and they are beautiful...she writes alot about her son who is autistic...thought you might like this one...

White Picket Fences and other myths

There are days
when I feel alone
when life is so different
than I imagined.
Of course I wanted the
white picket fence,
the two kids,
and the dog.
Who doesnt?
But dreams are like that,
they disapear
in the morning of life,
and we wake
to reality.
with a thump
as we fall out of our
bed of roses.
Is it silly to still dream?
is it naive
to ponder?
I sit sometimes on my porch
when the house is
still, reflecting on these
last few years,
when that little boy
wandered into our lives.
Oh how he wanders!
like a pixie, an elf,
a wonderful little creature
who fascinates and
terrifies us all.
Who can know him?
does he know
himself?
Who is he, and where is the key
to unlock,
to discover, to hold, and to find?
Oh yes, I wanted it all
back then,
before he came,
didn't realize that his coming
would change me so,
that a small boy
could work his way into my heart,
twisting it somewhat
tearing it sometimes,
but finding his place, nonetheless.
And I still can dream,
despite the sadness,
in spite of the pain,
I dream in color now,
back then
it was all black
and white
picket fences.

sally
Autism is not the end of the World. . . . just
the beginning of a new one.

copyright. 1999. Sally Meyer

There are more of Sally's poems on...http://www.cathye.com/momjustfortoday.htm and click on the link at the bottom of the page.

[Supermum]

... his experience of life is so different.

So sorry you are feeling sad Keara ... it takes a special person and alot of yourself to raise a child with special needs.

His experience of life is different because he sees it so differently - his own perceptions and his own reality. He is loved dearly, cared and provided for:). I would hope Kindy to be challenging and fun for him.

Every step forward ... no matter how minute ... is a step in the right direction - for you and him.

Take care

[tickle]

Keara: It must be hard to see how different things are for your little man, I can only imagine. But you have also been blessed with the wonderful spirit I am sure he is. ;) Kinder will be an change for all of you and a milestone all the same. I wish you all the best.
Darn pregnancy hormones have got me too. Carly what a fantastic poem. Brought tears to my eyes. :)

[Foxymoron]

Wow, what a beautiful poem... It says everything I feel about my little guy!

I have faith that my sons life will be rich and full of wonderful experiences in it's own ways, and he makes his own discoveries and advances in his own way, daily.

Thanks for the support :) I feel a lot better now. I hate these times when I feel down and sorry for myself.