Is this PND...again?

[~Bluebell~]

I had PND with my first baby... the "i'm a **** mum, full of self doubt, not wanting to let my baby out of my sight, seperation anxiety" kind. I now have another child who is 9 months old (the first is almost 3 now). i thought everything was fine this time, but the last month or so has been really tough. i find that i am constantly on the edge of this horrible anger and rage. The slightest little thing that dosen't go right or upsets me will send me over the edge. I find myself yelling and screaming at my DD for doing things that i'm sure any other almost 3yr old would do. And if my other DD wont sleep or is being difficult i find my self wanting to scream at her too. i get so mad and tense that my whole body hurts. And just feel completly overwhelmed by it all. i haven't hurt my kids and i dont think that i would, but it just scares me that i can get that mad and feel so out of control. My DH has been travelling a lot recently, so i'm sure that hasn't helped... My question is this... Is this PND again? Has anyone esle felt like this? What did you do? I'm seeing my GP next week and am thinking about asking to go on anti-depressants? Do you think this would help? i saw a shrink the first time, but this dosen't feel like the sort of thing that she could help me with. Any thoughts/ comments/ideas would be greatly appreciated! Thanks for listening (well... reading i guess i should say!)
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[Unsure]

I only have one child, so I can't be too sure. It may just be a rough patch you are going through...

Good luck with the GP and don't give up on counselling yet - it can be good just to talk to someone about all your problems...

[mum2my4]

Hi BlueBell,

Going to see your GP is a good starting point. Anti depressants could help. I know that counsellors where I go help with things like anger etc when dealing with children and help give strategies for when it happens. I think when your partner travels a lot or is not home much it can defiantely contribute to feeling overwhelmed as you do have to do everything by yourself.

Let us know how you go at the Dr's

[sasholi]

I would suggest seeing your GP.

I can't imagine the strain of having two children (but I will in about 10 weeks!).

I too had PND with DS1 and ended up seeing counselling and having anti-deps.

Can you maybe try taking St John's wort? It is a herbal supplement that is prescribed by doctors in Europe #1 before chemical anti-deps. It is really effective and non habit-forming. It might just ease the tension.

Counselling could also be a way to go. There might be some other underlying issues that are manifesting themselves in rage and anger.

All the best. You deserve to get this sorted. I'm sure that these feelings are really really normal too. A friend of mine is feeling similarly with two children. But just because it is normal doesn't mean you should suffer. If it is causing you concern, definitely ask someone for advice or seek some assistance.