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[mykidzmylife]

I have posted about my m/c before,but still need someone to talk to about it.

In January,i had an u/s and it showed my baby was no longer with us,it was a day i will never forget.
I should be feeling lots of movements and preparing for the arrival of another gorgeous bub,but instead,i have to look on,envious,at all the little babies around and all the lucky mums that still have a baby belly.
I feel jealous,and dont like feeling like this.


I am over the raw pain of my loss,but i dont think i will ever be OVER IT.

These are two poems i wrote,on a day that was a little tough for me not long after my m/c.


You are a little angel :angel:

You are a little angel
That much i know is true
I didn't want an angel
I only wanted you
My heart is still broken
That i dont think will change
Never able to hold you tight
Or kiss away the pain
I know you are around me
In my dreams i always see
Your beautiful,happy,smiling face
Looking right down at me
I know that you are waiting
With lots of little friends
For the day that will one day come
That will never have an end
I will save you lots of kisses
And heaps of cuddles too
Because you are a little angel
That much i know is true


Mummy and Daddy

Wipe away the tears you have
As i am really near
I know that you get really sad
But you should have no fear
I know that you love me
I know that you do care
I know that if you could
You would have kept me there
I have a special job to do
Which is hard for you i know
One day we will be together again
Then i'll never let you go



I am sorry that we have something so sad in common.:hugs:

XOXO
Jody

[mumx3littlies]

big :hugs: for you. The poems are really luvly. Dont really know what else to say but hope your day gets better.

[rynosmum]

I'm so sorry for your loss. The pain of my first M/C (in 2003) stayed with me longer than I could have ever imagined. We went on to have a wonderful little boy but I still always grieved my angel.

Only a few weeks ago, being 12 weeks pregnant with our next child-to-be, did I realise that the pain was finally easing. Whilst we would never have our first angel, we would have a family that would remember her always.

Unfortunately we lost our next bubba at 16 weeks just a few days ago and it has all come flooding back - the hopelessness of it all, the loss, the fears, the uncertainty.

My mother had 2 miscarriages, spookily an early one before her first child and a late one like me prior to her second child. A day doesn't go by when she doesn't think about them either.:hugs:

I think some people can look at it more constructively and look to the future. For the rest of us though, I don't know when it is ever truly over...