Having my baby tomorrow....

[stompy]

I am due to have my precious little one delivered by c section tomorrow, and have so many thoughts running through my head that I think I need to write things down.

DD was also a c section baby, but I don't remember being this scared about the whole thing. For the past few days I have been a bit of a mess and crying at the drop of a hat:o Dh has been wonderful and supportive, and I am very grateful for that.

I just dropped my dd off, and said my goodbyes, and was a blubbering mess. I didn't want my angel to see me so upset, but I couldn't help it. I kept smothering her in kisses and really didn't want to let go of her. I'm now missing her like crazy, and can't wait to kiss her again tomorrow.

DH keeps asking if I am excited, and while I am and can't wait to meet my little peanut, it just seems that fear is the overriding emotion that I am feeling at the moment. I don't want fear to be taking over the other emotions that I want to be feeling and should be feeling, and I feel a bit sad about this. I should be happy, over joyed and excited!!!!!

I don't understand why I am more scared the second time around. I mean it's not like I am venturing into the unknown, this is something I have been through before. Maybe it's because I am more aware of what occurs that I am feeling this way:confused:

Anyway if you have made it this far, thanks for putting up with my ramblings. No more dwelling on my fear, and negative what if scenarios. I am going to meet my bub tomorrow, and I shall be HAPPY tonight!!!!!!!!!:smiliedance:

[DQ]

:hugs: to you.

Things will be fine and everything will be forgotten when you hold your little bundle!!!

Good luck for tomorrow!!!

[Grace3]

Talk to your husband let him know your fears.

Funny enough i wasn't nervous 2nd time round. I usually would be though.

Big HUGS for tomorrow :hugs:

Grace

[punkbaby]

I havent had or experienced the emotions you are going through (booked in for ceasar etc) but i am sure that it will all pass when your little peanut, as you call it arrives!
Good luck! Perhaps your emotions are in over drive as its the whole relief, the being away from DD and the thought its all happening tommorow.

HUGS :hugs:

[lilly*]

:hugs:'s to you Stompy. I felt exactly the same way when I had my second daughter 6 months ago.

I had had a previous csection too but for some reason was so worried the second time round I was nearly making myself vomit!

The thing that got me through was my family!

While at the hospital that morning, I was just lying on the bed and he was holding my hand etc and it made me realise how much I loved him and how lucky this baby was to be coming into our family and how lucky I was to have carried her the whole 9 months with few complications and that she was coming into our lives.

Sounds silly I know, but I had worked up to the week before the birth, my husband works six days and we have an active 6 year old. So I guess before that I was so "caught up" in the day to day things.

I guess then the fear went away, and I felt so appreciative to be about to have a healthy baby, have a lovely DD1 and my husband by my side.

Lol, so the point of my rambling is....spend the night enjoying the miracle that you have a healthy baby inside you, and a great family and just try to relax and remember that in another six months, you will be looking at your bubby wondering where the time has gone!!

[charlieangus]

ditto on the emotional side on your second caesarean.

I felt the same way..I think it is BECAUSE you know what to expect

Good luck.....Its all going to be wonderful enjoy the whole thing...and try to take it all in, because you will want to remember it

[Melo]

I just wanted to wish you GOODLUCK for tomorrow! :D

This time tomorrow, you will be a Mummy to TWO :D

[natasha]

:hugs: to you.

Things will be fine and everything will be forgotten when you hold your little bundle!!!

Good luck for tomorrow!!!
This is what I was going to say.:yes: And good luck tomorrow, you will do great!

[nut]

Yes- all the very best for tomorrow!

Snuggle your little one tight and close!!!!

You'll be fine.:hugs:

[CurlyG]

:hugs: for you Stompy.
It's ok to be scared and nervous!
Just think about the big moment tomorrow when your fear starts to rise and remember to stop what you're doing, breathe and re-centre yourself.

Can't wait to hear all about the wonderful occassion! :thumbsup:

[stompy]

Thanks so much everyone for your replies, and kind thoughts.

To those of you who have felt the same way, it is nice to know that I am not alone or crazy for feeling other things apart from excitement.

I'm just going to keep telling myself that all will be well, and everything will be forgotten as soon as I glimpse my little one. Looking forward to posting a very positive birth story.

Oh and by the way, any name suggestions. Less than 24 hours to go and we still can't decide!!:rolleyes:

[lilly*]

What sort of names are you looking for?

I'm probably not a great help because I like non-traditional names...and I let my 6 yr old name my 6 month old lol....yeah not a great help at all!!

[stompy]

I don't have any real name requirements or types of names that I like, which I guess makes it hard. I had a list for months, but now when it comes to the crunch I don't like the names on my list anymore.

Just one more thing for me to worry about tonight, guess who won't be doing much sleeping?:rolleyes:

[BaDaBing]

Hi Stompy

Oh I'm so jealous! You are so lucky that you are going to have a little miracle to cuddle tomorrow night. Just imagine looking into your baby's eye and how wonderful its going to be. I wish you all the best in the world.

Sharn :hugs:
PS Having 2 kiddies it so much fun!