so down

[clarebear1983]

I am feeling so down at the moment..........and i think i am getting obsessed with my weight.

When i feel pregnant last April (06) i was 78kg which was 8kg over weight. Because i got really sick while pregnant I was 70kg when I had Lauren (8kg below my start weight). She was born via c-section.

When I got home from the hospital i was 65kg and I was so proud

BUT now, I am over 71kg again, and I am so hungry all the time. I am trying to be good, eatting well and exercising but I eat so much all the time because my appetite has doubled!

I dont want to be over weight again. I have began to become obsessed with not being over weight and will weigh myself up to 6 times a day to make sure i dont go over 72kg (top weight for my height) as i am so scared of gaining again.

How can I maintain/lose weight while breastfeeding and make sure Lauren has adequate milk??

How do i stop being so obsessed?

Tonight I weighted myself at 10pm and was horrified that my weight was 71.5kg so i went and did 400 crunches on the ab cruncher and then immediately jumped back on the scales only to find i was still the same.

I dont know what to do!
I am worried about my weight!
I am worried about my state of mind!
I am so worried about becoming obsessed with my weight!
I am definately worried because inspite of being obsessed I am still gaining!!

Sorry to vent but I need to let out because my husband doesnt understand (he is under weight and i feel like a blimp next to him).................

I AM SO DOWN ABOUT MY WEIGHT AND SELF IMAGE

on a lighter note: You can dance to "the wiggles" if anyone has seen the ad on TV of that lady using her kids wiggles tap to dance to to get 30 min of exercise-i have tried it, its so much fun and my son loves me doing it with him!

[susmamma]

Hi Claire,
Do you think you might be suffering from post natal depression? Sometimes it can present as obsessive thought patterns. Your baby is still very little. Now is the time for you to go easy on yourself, you're looking after two kids and not getting much sleep. You've just had a c-section and a new baby, beating yourself up because of your weight is no good for you. You have two children to look after now, it's a tough job honey! Be kind to yourself.
I would go and have a chat with your gp or early childhood nurse. I also want my skinny body back, but if having kids has taught me one thing, it's patience! I'll lose it eventually.

[raisingwhirlwinds]

Clare,

It’s great that you have recognized your obsession over your weight and have taken the brave step of sharing it the bub hub. It sounds to me like there’s heaps going on for you at the moment so it’s not surprising that you are feeling stressed and worrying about things, but please don’t beat yourself up over the weight gain. It’s natural for your weight to bounce back up after a period of illness and this time in your life would be no exception.

I just had a quick flick through some of your previous posts because I also came across your post on the Coeliac disease thread, and can see that you have had a significant number of stresses in your life recently. Just being a mum of a young baby is stressful enough, but also being worried about whether you have coeliacs disease and the numerous other things you’ve had to go through recently, all while studying, would be enough to give anyone depression.

My recommendation would be to hide the scales – they are causing you too much stress! Your health and that of your baby is far more important at the moment. Then if I were you, I would go to the doctors and talk to them about getting tested for coeliacs disease, and also ask about the depression question. I agree with meljellybean, you definitely have most of the symptoms of Coeliacs disease, and may find that it could be a reason for losing weight during your pregnancy. You may also find that any excessive tiredness may be due to low iron levels, another indicator of coeliacs. When I was 21, and just before I was diagnosed, I was working 4 hours in the morning, having lunch, then going to bed. I would get up around 5pm, have dinner and be back in bed by 9pm – and I didn’t have a baby then!!

I wonder if your reaction to wheat products might be contributing to the milk production concerns you noted a few weeks ago – I don’t know if this has resolved but it could also be related. Another thing that I’ve found in my experiences of breastfeeding is that milk production can reduce when you are stressed!

Sounds to me that you are doing a great job holding it all together considering the stresses in your life and not feeling the best, and I wish you all the best in getting to the bottom of things.

Sorry about the lengthy reply, please feel free to PM me.

Sending heaps of hugs your way
D :hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs:

PS. The coeliac society have a website with heaps of info so you could jump onto www.coeliac.org.au (http://www.coeliac.org.au/) if you want to look up more info.

[clarebear1983]

Clare,

You may also find that any excessive tiredness may be due to low iron levels, another indicator of coeliacs. .

Wow i didnt know that low iron levels were a "ceoliac" symptoms.........I have always had problems with my iron levels. It was always between borderline too low and anaemic. When I had Lauren my levels dropped dramatically and were not back after my 6 week check...............and I think they may still be down.

[raisingwhirlwinds]

Wow i didnt know that low iron levels were a "ceoliac" symptoms.........I have always had problems with my iron levels. It was always between borderline too low and anaemic. When I had Lauren my levels dropped dramatically and were not back after my 6 week check...............and I think they may still be down.
it's really sad that no doctor has ever considered testing you for Coeliacs disease considering this. Unfortunately Doctor's still don't seem to know enough about it even though there is more and more info available every year.