anorexia rears its ugly head........

[shelby67]

Hi there,
I am really struggling at the moment with my eating.:no: I do have a history of anorexia, had been well for while, but now its all falling apart.....:gloomy:
I went to my friends place yesterday and she has scales.....my weight is not healthy (47kgs) and Im 170cm:no: . So, why can't I get my act together?? I know where this leads if I don't and Im damned if I want to spend any time away from my DS.......when I know the consaquences(sp?) why can't I just do it!! AAAHHHH.....
I used to see a dietition who was excellent, but we moved suburbs 2 yrs ago and I can't see her anymore....AAAGGGHHH.
Im soooooo dumb and hopeless sometimes.....
sorry, end of my vent. Hugs please??
Shelby.

[tickle]

I'm sorry I don't have much advice for you. Can you find a new dietitian in your area? Seeking professional help is probably your best bet.
I hope things improve for you soon. Here's the hugs as requested....:hugs:

[lachys_mama]

:hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs: all for you!!

[RoarsomeMum]

its an awful feeling, like being trapped, knowing you want out, but not seeing the way. :hugs: :hugs: I hope you can find another dietician, or doctor, that you can trust.

[shelby67]

Thanks for your replys and hugs.

tickle, hoping to find a dietition around here, but its hard starting new with someone.Thank you for the hugs.
lachys_mama, thank you for the hugs too.:)

EcstaticEm, yes, like being trapped in a cycle you know is no good but you can't find the map to get out......and trusting another doc/dietition,,,hard....

Thank you all for your hugs and encouragment,
just waiting to hear from my old dietition now.
Shelby.

[kiah]

Glad to hear you are going to see a dietician. Hugs for you. :hugs: If I can help you in any way pls pm me anytime. xx

[Jinglebells]

shelby have you thought about going to see someone like a councilor(sp) there has to be a reason why your doing this to yourself, and although going to a dietition is going to help you with telling you what you should be eating and stuff, he/she can't really help with whats really going on with you IYKWIM

good luck with it all

[shelby67]

Hi there,
Have to be quick as DS is tugging at my leg:D I have made some progress in getting treatment set up, am back on anti depress meds...at the moment they suck BIG TIME.....one of the side effects being loss of appitite...the anorexia side of my head loves this...but I honestly don't...anyway doc says the side effects should dissapear soon. So I will hang in there and :fingerscrossed: :fingerscrossed: these are the right ones for me. My doc has also faxed my info to an eating disorder clinic in my area.:fingerscrossed:

Yes Im coming DS!!!!!
Will keep you posted on progress, thanks for your support.
Shelby.