don't want to be me anymore

[new_mummy82]

i just don't want to be me or be in my life anymore. i have a 7 week old daughter and a loving partner but i don't want to be here :gloomy: i have just had mastitis and had to have a 5cm absess drained (spent 4 days in hospital and had to have general anasthetic to get absess drained) and so my breast is still rather tender. i am a stay at home mum and my dp works from 5am - til 3 or 4pm everyday. and i'm finding it harder and harder to cope. i would really like to go home (14 hours away) to see my mum for a while but we can't afford it i just don't know what to do i don't want to feel like this coz i love my daughter and partner to bits but i feel like cr@p :crying:

[kiah]

U poor beautiful thing. I haven't spoken to u in a while. I am sending u ome cuddles and if u need anything at all pls pm me.

Luv Kiah:hugs:

[babylover111]

I'm so sorry you're feeling like that :hugs:
It must be hard with a new baby and little support, is there any way your mum would be able to come to you to help out for a little while? Also I'm sorry you had to have the operation but I hope it helps and relieves the pain and stops any further pain for you :hugs:

[threepigs]

Do you have a good GP you can talk to about how you feel? You really need some support one way or another and your GP might be able to point you in the direction of someone/something particularly if you don't have much $$ to spare. My GP sent me to a counsellor under a scheme where you get 12 sessions free. It just really helped to have someone to talk to once a week. PM me if you need a good GP inner west syd (not sure where you are). Also, it really does get better, you're in the hardest part right now. I was exactly the same. If you can get your mum to come to you that would be ideal. Can you ask her?

[misskittyfantastico]

Oh chickie, I feel your pain. My mum is a fair ways away also and when you're sore and sad and tired, that's who you want.

All I can say to you is that it WILL get better...when I am feeling at my lowest, that is my mantra (that and "Just keep swimming, just keep swimming:D "). All I can suggest is do what you have to do to get through each bit of the day, whether it be go for a walk or cuddle bub in bed or infront of the telly while you watch DOOL (or whatever). This is a hard, cr@ppy time and I'm sorry that you're going through it.:hugs:

[mumski]

Hi New mummy,
Sorry to hear that you're so unwell, mastitis is so awful and makes you feel so sad. I'm sending lots of good thoughts your way, everything's going to be fine, just hang in there, these first few weeks are the hardest, but I promise it gets easier... Keep your chin up!
x

[Mum2Bug]

Oh chickie, I feel your pain. My mum is a fair ways away also and when you're sore and sad and tired, that's who you want.

All I can say to you is that it WILL get better...when I am feeling at my lowest, that is my mantra (that and "Just keep swimming, just keep swimming:D "). All I can suggest is do what you have to do to get through each bit of the day, whether it be go for a walk or cuddle bub in bed or infront of the telly while you watch DOOL (or whatever). This is a hard, cr@ppy time and I'm sorry that you're going through it.:hugs:

This is exactly what I wanted to say. :hugs: Im here if you need someone to chat to NM!

MissKitty, love that mantra!:thumbsup:

[Manxie]

OOh you poor thing:hugs: I can completely relate to wanting your mum, I just want mine at the moment and she is 24hrs plus away and really sick:crying:

Is there anyway your mum can come and visit you?

It sounds like you have really been through it. Remember your horomones are all up s$$t creek at the moment. I remember having days when I just felt weird, really weird. Have you told your DH how you are feeling? Even if he isnt around much its worth letting him know, maybe he could take a day off and give you a bit of you time.

Do you chat to your mum on the phone, take half an hour tonight and give her a call you will feel so much better just talking to her.

Goodluck