Life sux.

[MonkeyMum05]

I really feel messed up right now.
I am starting uni next week, so I will only have my son on my own on Fridays. One day per week.
This week I had him for 2 days... even for this small amount of time, I lost my temper with him and just wanted to walk away and leave him and his dad.
I feel asthough everyone thinks I am a 'bad' mother... I think I am a bad mother.
He won't eat anything I cook him... Only **** tins of Heinz... or yoghurt or sandwhiches.
I try to spend time playing with him and he flips out at me over the smallest thing and throws himself on the floor... hits me.... etc.
I just can't handle being a mum sometimes.


I have dealt with depression before... and anxiety... and an eating disorder... and other issues... but that is in the past! Why am I feeling these kind of feelings again!?
I thought I had dealt with everything and had all the answers to these thoughts and feelings.
Obviously I don't.
I can't seem to remember the beliefs I held that kept me on top of it all.
I used to have a reason to be calm and compassionate and nice... now I just feel out of balance and out of control.

Maybe it's just a phase... starting uni... giving up a lot of time with my toddler. Maybe it's a sign that I am doing the wrong thing.

Maybe it will all just pass in another week or two.

Thanks for listening. :o

[spring]

Oh Selina your a fantastic mum!! Everyone loses there temper somtimes & if they tell you they don't there lying. Im sure nobody thinks your a bad mother.
Toddlers are strange little people, picky eaters, tantrum throwers but also very loving & I know Bodhi thinks your the best person in the World.:yes:
Like you said your going through a tough time with all these recent changes you just need to give yourself some time to settle in & adjust to your new routine.

[~rambox~]

Chin up babe :hugs:

I have no doubt that you are a great mum or you wouldnt be worried :yes: On that note i dont think there is anyone here who can honestly say that ther child hasnt thrown a tanty over something i know mine have and it does make you feel bad but dont let it get you down :kiss:

[whatwasithinking]

Except for the uni thing - I work fulltime - you have just told a day in my household.

I am going to counselling - hopefully that will help.

I just want to give you lots of hugs and tell you you are a fantastic mother!

:hugs:

[mama kare]

oh darlin..
i know exactly what you feel like... last year when they told me i had PND i was studying, doing 1 day prac a week in a centre, working 2 days a week in another centre and i felt so **** for not really spending time with ayla..

just do what you can handle, okay? dont over-do it..

:hugs: you're a wonderful mum.. you're possibly the only one i can be around right now and i know you wouldn't judge me...